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Obsessing about whether it’s okay to ignore your thoughts and feelings . Hurts the worst Bc this is the way I know that helps beat my OCD

How do I know? That's my main question all the time. -How do I know that I didnt cause the onslaught of terrible blasphemous thoughts? I'm so worked up abt one thought and it comes again, sometimes multiple times. I feel like I caused the others by still thinking about the first. - How do I know God will allow me to simply say: forgive me for those thoughts and forgive me if I caused any? Instead of perfectly saying the prayer with every possible detail of what could of happened. (Praying for one thing can last a long time) -How do I know that if I need forgivness at all for these things? I've spent a good majority of my day today crying and praying and being incredibly stressed out about saying my prayers perfectly about some bad things that happened earlier( blasphemous thoughts and being afraid I caused some) and another just now. It builds up and I knock down a few bad thoughts and finish my prayer but then another comes. It never stops. I'm afraid God will not forgive me if I dont do the prayers perfectly. I know I'm not supposed to do the prayers and I'm supposed to trust God, but what if I'm wrong? What if I DID cause any? I'm sorry guys. I realize all my post have been negative. I'm going through it right now. I just started counciling last week and have my 2nd session tomorrow. I've been crippled by fear.

I am afraid to get married and have children that might have the same OCD I am having righ now.

Lately i've been having low sex drive and i dont know why. I thought maybe i dont feel attracted to my bf anymore, we have been together for 3 years now and I do love him but this year I felt less "sexually". Quarantine hit me hard the first months with ocd but now i feel better. I started to think that maybe I'm asexual and it makes me sad cause my bf has very high sex drive so I would have to break up with him and I don't want to :( I do masturbate sometimes but I don't feel that sexual attraction towards my boyfriend (or anyone) like the first year. So idk if it is rocd or I'm asexual or just stressed and depressed. It's exhausting

anyone with real event ocd...how did u guys forgive urself/move on if u ever did?

Hi all, I feel like I need another opinion on something. So earlier today, I had a fight with my brother over a piece of cake. It sounds like nothing, but to someone with OCD it is a huge deal. So my mom left us a piece of cake and told us to split it up amongst ourselves. I had no problem doing so, but then the following conversation happened: Brother: I’ll do it. Me: ok... (I get two plates ready.) Brother: No, I have the plate here. (Takes out only one plate.) Brother: I’ll slice it, I’ll leave half in the original container. Me: sure... I then went to grab the piece in the original container. Me: Can I have this one? Brother: What if I said no? What’s the difference? Me: nothing Brother: Exactly. It’s mine! Me: (Trying to justify my anxiety.) well, it’s in a convenient plastic holder... Brother: So what? We then got angry at each other and I ended up leaving and going into my room. I haven’t talked to him since. Honestly, I felt offended right at the moment he said he will slice it. I felt like he didn’t trust me to slice a cake and that I was going to eat it all. I also saw that as a “microaggression” as in “hey, you’re too fat, let me eat it”. Looking back at it, I feel that it was just my OCD making a big deal out of nothing. I sent him a text apologizing, but I don’t think he’ll accept my apology. I honestly think he’s getting tired of me and my OCD. I regularly see a therapist, and they suggest that I be assertive to them about my feelings and let them know what upsets me. I tried doing that here but it obviously backfired. I also try talking to others, but it seems to add fuel to the fire. What should I do in these types of situations? I mean when being diplomatic about my feelings and trying to talk about it fails? Also does anyone else feel that their OCD makes them an unlikable person? Has anyone lost connections with friends or family because of OCD? I feel that because of OCD, I am incapable of any healthy social relationships.

I’m scared of my meds. I don’t wanna have the bad side effects and I’m so scared rn ugh

I recently developed transgender ocd. I’m going to cut down in physical compulsions as much as possible! I need to learn to accept uncertainty!!!

GUYSSSS!!! I am so HAPPPY!! Recovery is SOOOO POSSIBLE I THANK GOD EVERYDAY!! YOU CAN GET THROUGH THIS 100% I KNOW IT, I KNOWWWW ITTTTTYY

The loss of attraction to women is crippiling and depressing.

Hey everyone, coming back on with the same issue of rumination about the relationship mistakes I made I at the beginning of my current relationship. I keep reminding myself that I was not myself during those months, that I was only 17, and ultimately am now completely different and would NEVER do those things again. And my boyfriend keeps telling me that I have changed and that I need to forgive myself, but does anyone else struggle with like flashbacks from their mistakes, like I keep having flashbacks of the horrible things I was doing and how I was hurting someone I loved without even acknowledging it. I am the type of person to dwell on each and every thing, but during those few months I have completely morphed into someone that genuinely is not me, maybe it was the result of the medication I was on or something else. I am struggling so bad I feel as though I’m no worthy of anyone’s love, because I keep getting flashbacks to those days where I was carrying out really horrible things to do in a relationship, but now I’m changed and my boyfriend and I want to get married but I cannot get those flashbacks out of my head and I keep thinking how badly I must’ve hurt my boyfriend if he knew about every single thing I did, I know that old me is NOT me so why can’t I forgive myself and stop having the flashbacks

Any Christians on here? Can we have a conversation about God and how he has helped you throughout your journey ?

Feeling recovered but still getting false atttractions whats this?

Anyone else with harm ocd ever get that thought that you would be better off in prison for the rest of your life? Like take me there before I do something my ocd is torturing me with...these thoughts suck.

Hocd is so cruel

Hi, this is my first time posting here, though I have been looking at the app for support for a while already. I have pretty bad social anxiety which unfortunately extends to even being in forums online as well, so I have been putting off sharing on here. I am in my early 40s and have struggled with OCD in various forms since I was a child. In my mid-teens it exploded into very tormenting Pure O. It is complicated by some comorbidity with other diagnoses — social and generalized anxiety, depression, and CPTSD. The sad thing is that I’ve actually experienced so much harm over the years at the hands of uneducated mental health professionals who didn’t have a clue about OCD or how to work with it, and i feel like I carry this extra burden of shame and trauma from those bad experiences on top of the grueling daily struggle I have with my mental health diagnoses. I am set up to have an initial consultation appointment soon with a therapist who is a psychologist in private practice. They seem kind and very knowledgeable, and so I am very hopeful that we will be a good fit for working together. But I am still haunted by those past bad experiences, and so the whole process of starting with someone new is nerve wracking. Has anyone else had bad experiences with therapists who didn’t understand OCD or who had only a superficial understanding of it? Thanks for reading!

I feel almost sick again with guilt over this really manipulative thing I did when I was an early teen and idk what to do. I’m so so SO scared that it defines me. Like it says something about my personality. I wish I hadn’t done it, it was really bad

i’m so sorry for posting so much but i just want to know if this sounds like ocd? basically when i’m ruminating over something that happened for example when i was struggling with real event ocd what bothered me the most was that i felt like i couldn’t let myself enjoy anything, like i had to suffer for eternity, i’d get thoughts like “you don’t deserve to walk, eat, sleep, drink, watch tv, listen to music” etc. and if i did those things i’d get pangs of anxiety, it keeps happening to me and it makes me so depressed and miserable i feel like i don’t even deserve to be myself or talk to friends sometimes and sometimes if i touch something like a glass for example my brain goes you don’t deserve to know the concept of what a glass is. I know it sounds completely crazy and i feel so alone because i haven’t seen anyone else that deals with thoughts like this :( can i get over it?

I wanted to share some things from scripture that have helped me. 2 Corinthians 12:7-10 talks about a thorn in Paul’s flesh. Paul says a messenger of satan was sent to torment him (doesn’t specify what he was dealing with) and concerning this he pleaded to the Lord to take it away from him but what the Lord told him was “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” This is when Paul says that he will boast about his weaknesses so that God’s power may rest on him and that he will take delight in hardships, insults, persecutions, and difficulties. For when he is weak then he is strong. Now this may be confusing but sometimes God wants to see that we will still seek him and glorify Him when we’re going through hardships and not just when life is good. Also hard times make us stronger in the end because of the strength God gives us. You may not realize it but truly we all have a thorn in our flesh. Absolutely no one if perfect only our Father is. Having ocd has helped me be less judgey towards others and it has helped me cling to the one who knows me better than anyone ever will. It has also helped me better understand that we are all going through or have gone through something tough. But we aren’t to lose hope we are to be strong and courages. Deuteronomy 31:6

Do ssri’s make you go back to normal ? Like help you stop obsessing and help with anxiety?