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(HELP) Hey guys, I almost had a panic attack about 5 minutes ago, I thought I was going to go insane and lose entire control of my thoughts and have to be admitted into a mental facility because of me wanting to cause harm to myself and others. Me and my mom were in the car and I was thinking about jumping out and of course I know it was just my dark intrusive thoughts coming strong BUT I actually opened the door a little bit and almost wanted to jump in the traffic, I got SO DAMN SCARED because just doing that made me feel like I was going insane and I felt like I was going to go insane and end up in a psych ward for all of the intrusive thoughts I was having! I’ve had thoughts about hurting myself, my parents, loved ones, friends, and it’s scary as hell because the dark thoughts are making me feel like I want to do them but I don’t want to do them! This is all new to me! I’ve only had these dark thoughts since Sunday and now I’m scared for my LIFE! I am losing hope because I don’t want to have to go through these thoughts anymore for that much longer, and even almost attempting to jump out of the car was REALLY a scare for me, I am getting help and going to a group therapy, going to a 1 on 1 therapy and I started Prozac 20 MG last Saturday night BUT, I’m feeling like my case is severe and that’s even worrying me, I’m so scared for my life, SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!

Hello..so I stopped doing compulsions and my harm ocd has gotten weaker but it I’m sure switched to a new ocd but I don’t have any physical compulsions to do, however I’m pretty sure I’ve been doing mental compulsions which in my opinion is harder to deal with than physical. Any tips? Sending love and strength to us all ocd is a nightmare to deal with I can’t wait to live my life again without this bully inside my head

So looks like I’ve hit a wall I haven’t hit ever with this ocd. If you can even call it ocd. I genuinely feel confused. Idk what’s real or not. Idk what my mind or body wants. I feel so stressed out. My thoughts don’t give me anxiety anymore and sometimes it genuinely feels like I want it and I’m just hiding it. I don’t get it. I even lost attraction to this girl I was madly interested in. I don’t know what to do anymore really. I see any dude and my mind automatically starts thinking “you’re attracted to him” literally every single guy I see. I’m not even kidding. I really don’t get what’s going on with me. I haven’t been diagnosed yet because there are no ocd specialists in my area. My mom told me once she thinks she has ocd and my aunt as well. But their ocd seems more like the “traditional” type of ocd where you can actually see their compulsions. I think I struggled from Religious ocd a few years back. Also with my ex girlfriend there was a period where I struggled with ROCD I believe but got over it. Now Hocd has definitely been the worst and what makes it worse is that I actually had a gay experience but even after that I didn’t question my sexuality. I maybe would get the ocasional “you’re gay” thought but wouldn’t pay it attention and it just went away. But now it just can’t leave my head. This has been going on since February. I used to be crazy for women, don’t know what’s wrong with me. I even had sex with the girl I really like about 2 weeks ago and really enjoyed it! But now my attraction for her seemingly disappeared out of nowhere when this hocd bull starts acting up again. I’m so tired of this.

REALLY REALLY LONG POST BUT PLEASE PLEASE HELP. Hi guys, I’m suffering immensely from ROCD at the moment, at least I hope I am. My thoughts have been alternating with everything to do with my relationship, but currently they’re doubting my own love for my boyfriend. I’ve finally told him what I’ve been thinking and he’s understanding of them, but I just need some help. I found out his heart still skips when he sees me and that he gets butterflies when he holds my hand, which doesn’t happen to me although it has happened before (when I had a huge crush on a guy who didn’t like me back as much so when I saw him or got attention from him I went bonkers). Obviously, this makes me think I don’t love him as much as he loves me and it scares me to death. I feel like I don’t love him and that I’m only in this relationship to make him happy, which panics me even more. I know that I have ocd, I’ve been diagnosed with extreme ocd and suffered with a horrible case of HOCD a few years ago so this stuff is nothing new, but my issue is that the only romantic experiences I’ve had before my current boyfriend were very limited and as I was infatuated with my crushes and only had my imagination to know what it felt like, I was disappointed to not feel what I imagined everything would feel in a proper relationship. I always imagined it being like the films and that’s how I felt when I had crushes before, and when they showed me attention I got excited because I felt like I always imagined. But this is real and it scares me that I don’t feel like that and like how he feels. He told me he always falls hard and I thought I did too, but I haven’t stopped thinking about this since we properly started talking. We did meet online whilst I usually prefer knowing people in real life and basing an opinion on them from what they do every day. I don’t ever want to lose him, I always want to touch him and be near him, I like treating him and laughing with him and seeing him and I get so jealous and don’t want to disappoint him. I need some help, because I’m terrified that I’m not in love with him. I also have aspergers, which I figured out was the reason why I wasn’t fond of kissing, as I really really don’t like the feel of wetness, if anyone kisses me I always wipe it off like a child. I just need some help, I keep comparing how I feel in this relationship to how I’ve felt before, even though this is my first proper, and longest relationship to date (4 months so far). Anybody else ever felt like this? I’m really struggling so much.

Is retroactive jealousy a part of ROCD? Either way I’ve been dwelling on 1 particular person from my partners past tho they are not at all in his present and I think I took it to the breaking point. My partner feels like nothing they do resolves that retroactive jealousy and I don’t blame him because sometimes I feel like I’m just such a deeply bitter and insecure person that I’m just not capable of forgiving and forgetting. This might be the end ? I pushed a caring person to the breaking point

Where is everyone from? I’m from California. It’s so awesome to meet other people with ocd from around the world!

Pocd sucks so bad

What are the different types of ocd. I’m kinda confused a bit an I just want to know the whole spectrum Yk

hello ocd community! my obsessions and fear of throwing up and compulsions of praying about it cause me to have physical anxiety and my stomach hurts almost every night before i sleep. this triggers my ocd because i am deathly afraid of throwing up which causes me to act on obsessions when i start to feel sick. the anxiety and stomach aches can trigger each other, and when one happens, it is a vicious cycle and they make each other worse. i have a hard time getting out of this headspace or relaxing without taking xanax or drinking alcohol, and if i don’t, i will stay paralyzed in fear for 1-2 hours. any suggestions for healthy coping strategies? anybody have similar fears?

Does anyone else with contamination OCD not know whether they touched something dirty or not? If so how do you deal with it?

I have contamination OCD and I have been fighting my OCD all day today. And I ate food through the thoughts but now my head is constantly saying it will make me sick even though I know it will be totally fine and was delicious and healthy. But the thoughts are still bombarding

Honestly I'm just going to rant here. But I've been so mentally ill that I haven't been able to work and I feel so useless and unworthy. I'm 24 years old already and I don't work as much as I need to or am motivated and full of magic as I use to be. And that REALLY FUCKING GETS ME DOWN

Hi there, I have had OCD since the longest I can possibly remember. I was diagnosed when I was around 8-10 years old (bad memory sorry), but that’s only when my family actually took notice that it was making me causing me a great amount of stress/anxiety. So I’ve been living with OCD for basically my whole life really and it’s very hard to go against my compulsions most of the time. I used to be in therapy but since I thought I was getting better my OCD made me avoid going back again for help, and I stopped taking my medication as well. That was a few years ago now, possibly 3, but now I’ve just been suffering on my own. And this is where things get complicated so, I congratulate you for still reading (I appreciate it thank you). I have a super great group of friends who are all aware of my OCD, but don’t really understand it because I mostly tried to keep to myself. I would mention it whenever it got really bad but I didn’t want to be a bother so I stayed quiet. Now I have a best friend in this group and he’s the light at the end of the tunnel for me. He’s the one guy that I can talk about anything and everything with, so I started to open up to him about my OCD. The more I talked the more he learned basically, and of course he would open up about his own problems. One day I went to hangout with him and he told me that he thought he had OCD, so after a few months of kinda walking him through what he could be experiencing, he decided to see a therapist. He came back and told me he had been diagnosed with OCD, now I won’t say what kind because that’s his personal business but now I’ve just been trying to help him out when he’s with his therapist. Anyway, long story short, I find it hard to help him in these hurtful times for him and I could use some advice on how to care for him. I know you would probably think I’d know exactly how to help him since I’ve dealt with OCD my whole life, but now everyone is the same when it comes down to it. So that’s my life story at the moment (sorry for making it so long for people to read), but if you have anything to say please do. Have a nice day!

Guys! I have harm OCD and really need your help here! Anyone else got hit by I thought, Which didnt come up like a "What if I killed him?" question but more like a sentence like "Kill him" randomly! I am sooooo afraid of phycosis and hurting the ones I love. What if this is i skizofrenia thought? Someone help! I am really terrefied right now!

Has anyone else dealt with analyzing “emotions” (is this attraction, or is this anxiety, etc.) with their HOCD and what types of things helped you get through it or cope with it?

Anyone else feel like the worst part of all this is “feeling” like you actually like this. In other words you’re afraid that certain thoughts or feelings are “proof”?

anyone struggle with a really weird self image?

Sigh, I don’t know how I’m almost at the end of my second year at university and still haven’t made a solid group of friends. Like I have acquaintances that are awesome and that I love running into, but only one person that I can say “hey my brain is about to explode and I feel like crying until I throw up can I come lay on your couch”. You know. Those friends. I’ve known her since we were like 9 and she’s nice and all but her personality just isn’t my favorite. And when she’s busy, I’m at a loss and just lay in my room until it gets dark and I’m hungry. And I ruminate and ruminate and ruminate. Today wasn’t a good day at all. A stranger yelled at me, I felt particularly fat and ugly, and I spiked a little bit earlier. I just wish I had more friends, like in high school. Anyways. Just having a pity party. ?

I’m having a serious panic attack right now, and I really need some help. Warning this might be a little TMI: I went to the washroom and noticed that some of my stool had some black splotches in it. My mind has immediately jumped to the conclusion that there is a serious bleed somewhere in my digestive tract and that I’m dying, despite the fact that I haven’t been vomiting, haven’t fainted, am not in any serious pain, etc. The panic is so bad, I can barely catch my breath, I’m shaky and feeling fantom cramps across my stomach. I am on the verge of tears and I am so scared and I can’t calm myself down. I just can’t get the thought out of my head that I am internally bleeding to death and that I am dying. Can anyone help me? Thank you ?

Hey! I’m a teenage girl who has fully recovered from Harm OCD. Feel free to ask any questions and I’ll do my best to answer them!!