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I heard some therapist tell you have OCD and some don’t because it’s reassuring. What have your experiences been? I really am hoping to get diagnosed….

i locked myself in my room so i wouldn’t cause any danger to my siblings or my moms friends kids. i can’t breathe. my mind is trying to convince me to go out there and hurt the kids. my body is in full panic mode. i need help.

Can watching movies to distract myself be a compulsion?

I think I need to accept this. Too many signs and urges. A pretty girl would definitely make me nervous if she was flirting with me like in the scene of this show I watched. I feel very sad and scared and alone but I don’t think this is just soocd anymore

I'm miserable, so down with these thoughts like I want to be with a man. What have I got to do ?. How can I continue if thus is making me miserable?

Do your family members know that you have ocd?

Literally had a dream where I was asking this guy out on a date, and a couple other gay dreams mixed in, its the norm for me now.it just felt too natural and normal more than what ive felt around and for women. I woke up feeling ive realized once and for all that I am actually gay. I think all my life me wanting a gf and sex was caused by porn and hetero culture. Sure I only found girls attractive growing up (dont think thats true either) but I dont think any of that attraction was real, it just makes me upset that I thought I liked girls and wanted a gf this whole time when Im actually gay but why be upset upset if that is the case. I dont think I understood how relationships and romance worked or what being straight meant either as I was just follwing the culture which explains why I was unbelievably awkward and clueless around women or when they flirted with me bc I didnt feel true attraction. Now therapy seems pointless. Im just afraid if these soocd thoughts came true then the thoughts that I myself am a woman inside are probably true as well. My head hurts from constant thoughts and internal monologue, can someone talk please

Hi everybody. What do you do if a thought is literally eating you alive? Over and over? Its like my brain is torturing me

i saw this post on @obsessively_anxious insta and it really stood out to me. it stated “you didn’t act on your other thoughts, but this time it’s different…” this is how i feel right now with the thoughts of my sisters boyfriend. is anyone else experiencing this? she means ocd will try everything in its power to make you feel like your case is different everytime.

I’m scared I even try to watch an animal crossing video and they were girl characters and said I don’t want to notice how hot it was sex your pretty girls are how lame is that and I’m scared I don’t know if I was feeling anything down there I don’t wanna start noticing girls and they’re I don’t wanna call them pretty like that I don’t wanna notice how hot or sexy any girl is i’m scared of the way I was smiling like I was liking the hair in the I don’t wanna start liking women of any species real or fake and I hate this a lot I don’t want to start noticing this I’ve never thought women were pretty like that I was basically checking to animal girls out and I don’t like it I don’t wanna like any girls real or fake any species I don’t wanna notice how pretty they are I don’t like girls I don’t like the way I’m smiling at them I don’t wanna change it I’m scared I’m not over guys and I’m not into girls and I don’t know and I hate it

Why do I freak out when a guy wants to hangout 😭😭 like I’m so nervous to date ugh

For those of you that need it today. Excerpt from “Because We Are Bad: OCD and a Girl Lost in Thought” by Lily Bailey.

Are there any movies or tv shows that trigger some of you ? I watched one that triggered me a little bit but I was able to sort of overcome that trigger.The movie was Moonlight , it’s a really great movie and I would even recommend some of you to watch , I got triggered sometimes but I guess I moved on with a major exposure , feeling happy about this

the guilt and shame from my thoughts just won’t go away. i wanna go shopping? “no you’re a sick person!” i graduated? “you don’t deserve to be happy.” i wanna eat? “no you don’t deserve it” im so so so tired dude.

It's been getting so difficult to consider intrusive thoughts as "unreal." I continuously pick up on certain things my partner says and have intrusive thoughts on their morals. It's getting so tiring :(

My bf has been dry lately and I’m worried he doesn’t like me but he did tell me in beginning he was bad txter and dry. And even when he says he’s not mad I still think he is

I don’t know if my love really loved me or not. It’s crazy. I keep feeling like she love bombed me and got what she wanted and left. What’s even worse is she left me with the crib, not responsible for any debt, and said don’t worry about anything. It just makes me feel like I’m not seeing something🤷🏾‍♂️ All on top of moving to Delaware with her sister right away and getting a job within the next week. Am I tripping? But I just can’t seem to shake this thought. All on top of that my neighbor just started being extra nice to me and we been hanging out but she’s like invasive. Asking way too many questions. Then I get this weird text. Please talk this out with me.

could i please talk with someone that has harm ocd? i’m struggling rly bad

It’s a lovely Saturday, so if you have any questions for someone that’s recovered from every OCD theme under the sun, send me those questions below! 🥳

I wanted to share something positive for everyone. It's a long one By no means am I a success story yet but I am working hard towards it. 12 years ago when I was first diagnosed, I became a success story. I did the work and gave up "control" and lived a symtpom free life for 12 years. I never forgot what happened and the pain but it was in my rear view mirror and just something that happened. Fast forward to December 17, 2021 and boom, triggering thought, and I knew exactly what was going on. Even though I knew what was going I went straight back into the old compulsions. I wanted "control." I didn't want what happened to happen again. Well, it did. I went straight down the slide. I stopped sleeping, eating and was just in constant fight of flight. Intrusive thought after intrusive thought with rumination and compulsions. The first thing I did was get into NOCD and I got an appointment. From the first go round I knew I needed specialist help. The problem was that I was trying to help myself by reading every book on OCD and trying to find the "magic pill" of information that set me free. I already knew about ERP and the thoughts not being me but my OCD so I was trying to self start my recovery but while I thought I was helping myself by reading and trying to re-educate myself, I didn't realize what I was doing was a compulsion and just feeding the cycle. There is a fine line for me in terms of looking for info and seeking out reassurance and I was crossing it all the time. Well, I realized it. Deleted every ebook off my phone. Only came on the app for therapy and to throw a post down (but I realized maybe that could become a compulsion, or it kept me in the thought loop of OCD, OCD, OCD). So, I stopped doing that as well. My other compulsion is really rumination which is a bit more difficult but I am trying. Now I am about 8 days into not doing any compulsions, except the odd rumination, which I try to catch quickly. I have seen significant improvement in things but have had days of set backs, I think really triggered by the fact that I had no sleep in a month and was going back and forth about starting on meds. Again, a control issue. I have been doing ERP daily, even on my worst days. On Thursday I could barely get off the couch. I was so tired and frustrated. The intrusive thoughts weren't so much there it was the exhaustion and the weight of making a choice to take some meds or not. What really helped was a good talk in therapy. Well, I decide to take the meds and it felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. Not because of the meds but because of the choice and not to worry or ruminate on it anymore. Yesterday, I felt the best I have in a month. Thoughts were still there but came and went. Anxiety was low and my enjoyment for life was back. I felt like "me." Today is much the same. Thoughts come in and out more. And the rumination is less. I am on day 3 of meds so I am sure that may or may not be helping, but I am putting it down to a combination of these things. 1. Ceasing trying to "control" everything. 2. Stopping the compulsive seeking of knowledge/reassurance. 3. Better sleep 4. The meds but the say it takes weeks to see improvement and I am only on day 3. 5. Quality therapy 6. A super support group around me. Wife, kids, friend. 7. And probably most important. DAILY ERP All this said. There is hope out there. Even on Thursday I thought there was no hope. I had had great days prior to that but in that moment I could not see the progress I had made. I may have been at my lowest point and 2 days later I feel like I am at a great point. Hopefully it continues. For now I will take it 1 day at a time and be grateful for it all. I wish you all the best. There is hope even when it is dark. I wanted to share with everyone who needs a positive story. Hopefully mine will continue down that path but I know that I don't have "control." I can only try to make positive choices and choose the path that I want to live regardless of what my OCD brain tells me. You can do this!