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- 15w ago
Guilt
Does anyone know how to deal with guilt for something you did as a kid that you feel is disgusting and worry that it could have hurt someone you loved.
Does anyone know how to deal with guilt for something you did as a kid that you feel is disgusting and worry that it could have hurt someone you loved.
Yeah I feel that way, it's taken so much from me for over a year now. I can't forgive myself, I feel like what I did was pretty bad. But I constantly remind myself I was a kid and should just forget it but my mind doesn't let me do that. Idk how to just forget it and move on, I'm constantly paranoid about it
Arguing with your mind by saying you've been a kid back in the time is compulsive. This is why thoughts keep coming back. Thank your thoughts for reminding you and invite them to stay longer and practice that. I know it sounds weird in the beginning but it's practice.
@Pluriel Does that work? The last thing I want is for them to stay longer
It's a process. I've dealing with guilt and other mental fallout from stupid things I did as a kid and that's really all I can say. When it comes up to bother me I just remember that I can't figure out what happened back then and I can't keep bringing those events into the present. I focus on my ERP and sit with the anxiety as I go about my day until it passes. And I just trust the process. I can't hope to have a certain outcome. That's the hardest part. I guess just remember that your current self doesn't owe that guilt anything
very scared and worried i hurt/did something bad to my baby cousin while he was growing up and scared did something to a young family friend when i was growing up. idk how to move past without having answers but I never will get one. how do i even FEEL like im a decent or good person if there’s a chance i did something bad like this growing up? i was very hyper sexual as a kid and did try to touch other kids my age and also did weird things out of curiosity. i also did have things done to me as a kid by other kids idk if by any adults. I’m just scared.
So, I was exposed to pornography at a very young age and it ruined my childhood. Of course, at the time I saw those disgusting, horrible and even illegal things and I liked them, but now I have to deal with the consequences of that, and I feel disgusting. When I got professional help, I was told that even if when I was a child and watched lolicon, for example, it is okay beacuse I didn't harm anyone. But I still feel guilty, I do not want to hurt real children, I had never had these intrusive thoughts about children, it is only now that I am overcoming my addiction that I realize how awful and harmful the things I've seen were. How do I forgive myself, and accept my past mistakes?
How do I forgive myself for things I did as a kid? Disgusting terrible illegal things? I’m grown and I would never do them now, but how do I move on?
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