- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
nervous
Have to go to court tomorrow and face my harasser. I am terrified and it’s making my OCD go out of whack and is scaring me.
Have to go to court tomorrow and face my harasser. I am terrified and it’s making my OCD go out of whack and is scaring me.
Doing better. The extension on the harassment order wasn’t granted, but hopefully the individual will stop bothering me and let me live peacefully.
@Anonymous you did a brave thing. give yourself credit and a high five from me. ❤️
That sounds really really hard. Glad you’re able to see your OCD for what it is. Be gentle with yourself as you ride the waves. You’re not alone — sending you encouraging thoughts ❤️
yes, it is good you recognize what it is. just keep telling it that you are going to be focusing on something else right now.
I would add be gentle with yourself, that seems like a scary thing to face and you have every right to feel that way. Give yourself grace. But know that you are enough and worthy, don't let your OCD tell you things that aren't true about you.
What a brave thing to do, alongside your fears. That is a lot of strength. Be kind to yourself, no matter what your OCD throws at you, you are strong and capable. Today will pass soon enough. Please let us know how you’re doing if you like
I know I need therapy. I have a flare up every three months that rocks my world— it’s been like this for four years. I’m just too scared. I’m too scared to have a therapist tell me I’m a lesbian. I’m too scared to do ERP and have it not work because it wasn’t actually OCD. I’m too scared for the ERP to work and me finally feel comfortable with being bisexual or a lesbian. I don’t want any of that to happen. I don’t understand how I can get over this and still be straight. I’m petrified at the thought of therapy, but what is going to happen to me?
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