- Date posted
- 1y ago
it's so tough
my thoughts are based on real events that i remember so when i have what ifs it's that what keeps me reeled in, i'm trying to push through the intense feelings it's just so hard
my thoughts are based on real events that i remember so when i have what ifs it's that what keeps me reeled in, i'm trying to push through the intense feelings it's just so hard
I understand going through the same thing
The fact that you’re pushing through is good, and I know it’s so hard not to seek reassurance. By pushing and pushing (and with some growth in wisdom) you’ll hopefully learn that these feelings are *just* feelings. The illusions will show its true face, you won’t be deceived by ocd any longer. Keep boldly optimistic in order to persevere, I wish you the best with this. If you believe in God, Pray for help with this issue also. I’m fully confident that God helped me to get to where I am today in terms of anxiety management.
On the same road - no word of wisdom other than you’re not alone with being at war with your mind.
I don’t know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
i feel like i have been posting a lot about this and i will try to stop since now but i just don't know where to start or what to do, and i can't take therapy right now either. my event is about something that did actually happen; i had a boyfriend and we had a 1.5 age difference (i know this sounds stupid) but the thing is that we both started to sext a lot since he was 14 and i was 15. we shared audios videos pictures ect and i don't know how to just let this go, even when i know that i never really forced him into anything and i was always constantly worried about him being comfortable, when to stop and ect. the memories keep coming back to my mind and the guilt is eating me up slowly because i keep thinking that i'm a predator or a groomer or something like that. i don't know how to deal with the what ifs either, lately i haven't stopped thinking what if i sexually harassed or sexually exploited him or something like that. how do i deal with the cycle of guilt and constant what ifs if i also feel like my event is worse than others i've seen? please help me with this. it's getting a lil tiring and even if somedays i know how to deal with this, i still get really triggered sometimes. this wouldn't even bother me before, i wish i could just get back in time before this theme popped into my mind. my life has been a hell since then and i live constantly scared and suicidal.
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