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- 1y ago
Real event/false memory
Nothing can shake off the guilt. I don’t start therapy for a couple weeks. I’m almost non functional, what can I do
Nothing can shake off the guilt. I don’t start therapy for a couple weeks. I’m almost non functional, what can I do
Hello. I was in your shoes about a year ago, there is hope I promise! Best advice I have would be to keep doing your daily routine (work, exercise etc) and stay busy. Refrain from mental checking, it just makes it worse. You’ll make it through it I promise! I said a prayer for you. Hang in there
What I’d recommend is pushing yourself to go out. If you have a place you like to go or people you like to be around go there. Figure out ways to push yourself out of the house. In a therapy program I was in they pushed hard on opposite action. So, instead of receding into your space go out into the world, if you can do chores. Create a list of a beneficial activity, a valued activity, and a routine activity for each day this week then try to complete them.
that’s me right now too, I have this guilt because of my ocd and it’s really annoying.
@weronikas I’m starting to feel better in a way that feels more lasting, you will get through this
Same here. I relapsed hard recently. I have more tools to handle it now that I’ve started therapy, but those real events are really kicking me.
I did a few sexual compulsions (only with myself of course) in the past (2 months ago , did it couple of times) and I regret it BADLY I want to die every time because of that because of the guilt that I can’t handle it I feel like a monster I can’t move on from this. I feel like I deserve nothing in life. I prefer to kill myself then do it again. Like what went on my mind. I wanted to check and get rid of the thought but I can’t live with the shame. I posted this a few times but cant move on. What I did was BAD sexual compulsion. My therapist said to me that people with ocd can have a sever compulsions. And I think I told her about this compulsion but I think she forgot so I’m planning to said it to her again so she will tell me if it’s actually ocd or not. And the fact that I did have another themes before Pocd but I don’t know if I have Pocd anymore cause I feel like a monster and like I crossed the line. I’m terrified that I went to far. I regret I badly. There is not a single day I’m not thinking about it and want to kill my self. That compulsion is against my morals like I become the person I was afraid of all the time. The shame will it me until the day that I die
Feel guilty for not giving into compulsions like rumination and confessing? I feel guilt for having an intrusive thought, trying to shrug it off or just giving it a few seconds of thought and moving along. This sounds like improvement but I still struggle with the anxiety and the guilt. The shame. I’ll be okay and then I’ll remember I have OCD and my stomach will drop and I just want to curl up and cry.
Last year I used and app to talk about my POCD and people called me a pedo and told me to kill myself. It has been months and I had even forgotten about it, but I talked about my mom yesterday and I feel a sense of doom now. Like, I could have lived my life normally, but this happened. I feel overhelmed, and don't know exactly what to do, cuz when I stop to think about it, it is something awful, but I spend months just not caring, I don't know what to do, it was not even close to the worst thing that has ever happened to me, but it still feels terrible, it keeps echoing in my mind, and It won't go away, and yes I know it is OCD, I just want to let It go. And I lied somethings to my mom cuz if I told the whole truth she would be even more heartbroken (I just didn't say what app it was and I said it was recently, and not months ago) And I feel bad, but now I can't go back, but if I told her the whole truth, she would've just broke down. Basically she thinks it was yesterday and in another app, and I told her I just commented on something. But I feel so bad! I don't want to tell the truth to her, but also, I don't know...
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