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- 35w ago
Why Does It Feel Like Denial?
This theme always feels like I am in denial and that I am somehow using OCD as an excuse. Especially, when I get intrusive thoughts and I don't feel any anxiety.
This theme always feels like I am in denial and that I am somehow using OCD as an excuse. Especially, when I get intrusive thoughts and I don't feel any anxiety.
I am currently going through this as well I was just telling myself " what if all this is me and I'm using ocd as a crutch " " what if everything I'm thinking I did is true" my therapist says that ocd is sneaky like what you said
@Anonymous Yea I’ve been told by my OCD therapist the same thing & It’s frustrating how I can’t just stick with what a professional tells me
I had something similar with gender identity ocd. It felt SO real, like my entire journey growing up was somehow false and that I was secretly a woman and in denial. Compulsions galore, anxiety. I felt like I was in denial too but eventually it went away. Lean into what is
Yeah that's how I feel, and my memories are like never ending prove, if I manage to prove one wrong, a different one will show up, but there's one I never manage to prove wrong, so that one must be the real one
I understand but it’s OCD
@Anonymous hey anonymous, thanks for your reply. OCD is very sneaky. I hate it
I get it somedays you might not feel anxiety sometimes you do in going through that right now your not alone
Sometimes i feel like im using ocd as an excuse. What if i dont really have it and im just freaking myself out? Does anyone feel this way
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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