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Things i did as a kid
How do I forgive myself for things I did as a kid? Disgusting terrible illegal things? I’m grown and I would never do them now, but how do I move on?
How do I forgive myself for things I did as a kid? Disgusting terrible illegal things? I’m grown and I would never do them now, but how do I move on?
I have the same problem. Just know you’re not alone. I have so so much guilt from it that sometimes I feel like I’m dying from the thought of it. I’m grown now too, and I would never ever do those things again. To realize too, I was a child learning and being impulsive. I’m still learning to cope with it. Sending you love❤️
You need to acknowledge that you genuinely wouldn't do this now. A bad person wouldn't feel remorse or regret or guilt etc. This feeling you have in general just proves that you have grown. No guilt is needed. And all kids do bad things they aren't proud of but you gotta remember it's not just you and you were just a kid. You know better now
I have found that my OCD really makes guilt more intense. I have a hard time with getting over guilt too. I think it can help to identify what is going on. The OCD is hijacking our healthy consciences and then laying a burden of impossible guilt on us. But human beings were never meant to live under a blanket of impossible guilt. You can take your life back from OCD. It starts with recognizing that this guilt is not for you. Then you can take steps to defeat it. Big hugs. You are in good company. Don’t feel guilty about the past. You can live in grace. 💙💙
Think of this life as a training ground for something better—let's call it heaven. If we were born in that perfect place without any training, we would still make mistakes. Those mistakes would ruin the utopia. So, don’t feel bad about your mistakes. This life is meant for learning, and it’s okay to stumble along the way. Each mistake is a chance to grow and improve. Remember, this world is not the final destination; it’s a place where we prepare for something even greater. Embrace the lessons you learn here! Have a great day
I’m here with you too ☝🏼
I have made multiple mistakes in my past that lead me to believe im a bad person. thinking about them often sends me into a panic attack. i cant help but feel i need to be punished. i hate this feeling, what should i do?
When i was between the ages of 11-18 i was a very mentally ill and hyper sexual kid. I did a lot pf sexting, sent nudes, and even one video of me doing inappropriate things that haunt me to this day. I have changed a lot since then and realized that this was all jn relation to (TW!!) sexual abuse i experienced as a child/teen. I still feel horrible for the things that I have done and think about this daily. I beat myself up because I know it was wrong of me to act that way growing up. Im afraid that someone will find these texts/pictures/videos one day and it will lead to my complete humiliation. I want to throw up at the thought of people i know and love seeing me act that. Its not who I am or who I ever was. I regret that part of my life so deeply it hurts.
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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