- Username
- Hiii123
- Date posted
- 23w ago
Tired of OCD
Why is OCD always there?!?! I can’t relax for a minute or my thoughts are seeking things to ruminate about
Why is OCD always there?!?! I can’t relax for a minute or my thoughts are seeking things to ruminate about
The worst part is how inescapable it can feel. Most people can get some temporary relief by finding a “flow state.” It’s any activity that requires your full attention, something that you feel like you “lose yourself” in when you’re doing it. It could be writing or doing a puzzle or exercising or playing an instrument. Find something that gives you flow and lets you get out of your head for a bit.
@pureolife Thankyou!
The worst thing about OCD is that when it starts it takes you on the most unbearable and infinite rollercoaster of your life (nausea included in the price). I know that. My most recent flare-up started the second I met my now boyfriend. First, it convinced me that he was a player just because we met on Tinder and we agreed on a situationship for two months before making it official — dumb, I know, but there I was. THEN, ever since two months, it ranges from “you don’t want him anymore now” to “you are just disgusted because you know he talked to other girls on Tinder” — duh?? We were BOTH on Tinder?? You know what the worst part is, though? Getting over a theme and knowing how hard and lengthy the process is and fearing its comeback… it leaves you in constant anxiety.
@asiaf Dating with OCD is so complicated, its like OCD already have a relationship with you and OCD is jealous at any other and wants to ruin them :(
OCD is so strange because I feel so mentally exhausted 24/7 but i’m so good at masking it that like it’s like i can think double. I’m not sure that makes sense. But i am so used to the OCD thoughts racing through my head that i can respond to my environment whilst completely existing in my head. I can have conversations when intrusive thoughts are taking over my inner dialect. I feel like i am even doubting whether i have OCD and whether it’s all just an excuse. I feel like my rumination hasn’t stopped for the past 3 years. Everything i used to enjoy or look forward to, is now dread and tainted by the thoughts telling me i never knew. I don’t even know what i like or who i am anymore. The thought of getting help and talking through it all scares me because what if i’m invalidated or if i speak about it too much then what if i don’t stop thinking. I’m so exhausted
Every time i seem to get a hold of one thing my ocd is doing to me it comes back up in different ways and im so tired of it. I can’t keep living like this and i really feel so tired and done. First it was harm/suicide fixations and actions then it was intense sound sensitivity then it was touch sensitivity and now i’ve got a grip on all of those after MONTHS and now my depression has stemmed from my ocd and im ready to lose my mind or whatever is left of it. i just want to die bc its literally the only end all of this game. im exhausted.
What helps when u can't stop an obsessive thought from Occuring?
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