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- 48w ago
tired (two.)
It feels like my OCD is determined to steal everything I love. It’s so exhausting to have to fight myself all the time.
It feels like my OCD is determined to steal everything I love. It’s so exhausting to have to fight myself all the time.
I get it :( especially it gits worst at those times where i am at my happiest and have something to lose. It ruined some of my best times in myself and it hurts to feel like everything is good but the problem is you.. but I also learned that it gets better, even when it’s taking so long sometimes.. and i have hope about the future even tho its scary but i feel like now at least i know what is the problem and how to deal with it, I’m sorry i hope it will get better
@camdenlol Thank you! 💕
I feel your pain ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
@Knockonwood3 Thank you! 💕
Are you in therapy with a trained OCD therapist who uses ERP therapy? You can find one on this NOCD site. You're right about OCD. It's determined to ruin your day. OCD therapy can be a game-changer for you.
@Steven55! Sadly, no. NOCD’s resources have been helping me practice ERP on my own, but I’m UK-based so finding an accessible OCD therapist is a challenge.
@Naomi. NOCD will also accept international clients. I understand they even set up the sessions based on your time zone. I think you will need to pay out of pocket, but I think the rate of exchange favors the British pound, so you will pay less in pounds than in dollars. Anyway, it may be worth you investing the time to set up a free consultation. Hope this helps.
I’ve been dealing with a really bad flare up the last 2 weeks and i’ve been dealing with ocd on and off for years. I was finally feeling better today, So of course my ocd decided to bring up an old intrusive thought that was really upsetting and now i’m stuck on it again. The reason why I struggle so much to conquer my ocd is because I developed ocd as postpartum so my ocd targets my kids, the ones that mean everything to me. The intrusive thoughts range from mild to really disturbing. While I know deep down the intrusive thoughts aren’t true or me, the ocd makes it feel SO real and true which makes me feel like I HAVE to disprove the thoughts and with confidence but the ocd won’t let me. It also makes me question analyze and judge everything I do. It’s an endless cycle of pain and I just want to be a mom without ocd telling me i’m a horrible person all day every day. 😪
I want to go do something I enjoy so badly but I feel like I don’t deserve it. I’m full of guilt, shame, and anxiety. I wish I felt okay like I did a few days ago. I feel so awful right now. I hate OCD. I HATE pocd. I hate all of it. I wish this was easier. Sometimes I have the thought that I wish I was the things my OCD makes me afraid I am out of desperation to stop the anxiety, but then that thought makes me panic bc I don’t actually mean that or want that I just want the anxiety and urgency in the compulsions to stop. I’m so tired
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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