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a compulsion I struggle with is m-sturbation. when the groinal responses and thoughts get to bad I do that to gain some sense of relief. but sometimes I end up agreeing with the thoughts or think bad stuff while doing it just to “give in” and also “test myself” and finish so i can find some relief. but IMMEDIATELY afterwards is a sense of shame and regret of wtf did I just do? i guess doing this gives me a sense of control over whatever this is so i try to agree with it but the compulsion is so gross and so is the theme so why would i ever find relief. i honestly believe im a p in denial. my pocd has been acting up non stop for almost 2 and a half months. I feel like im going to cry

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I used to do this too but not for pocd for sexual themes involving family members. It’s so helpful to get on OCD medication and to stop masturbating. I know it’s not because you want to- it’s because you want it to go away. However this only makes everything worse. If you can slowly stop like trying to give yourself that shame you feel after except during it’ll help you to stop masturbating all together at those thoughts. Just try to do it less until you don’t do it at all. Set a timer if you have to.

u don’t have to be taken off the earth ! i’ve been dealing with the same compulsions and thoughts for a long time. especially what you said abt giving in and testing urself. you’ll get thru this rough patch. pls remember ur not alone and ur not the only one dealing with these themes and compulsions. i hope ur taking care of urself 🫶

Whenever you're having thoughts about masturbation just say that "yup OCD nice idea" or say "yeah that's a weird thought" cause thoughts are just thoughts ik it's hard but you have to do it to get out of OCD cycle 

i just feel so lost. and alone. idk who else has this compulsion and sometimes PURPOSELY THINKS OF BAD THINGS. i feel like i need to be taken off the earth 

I'm doing ERP so when I don't do any compulsion my OCD keeps telling me I want to masturbate and two times i fall for it too and after that I understood that I was compulsion cause of the way it gives me relief for sometime I'm having these thoughts today too now I just say that "yeah yeah sure I will see it later" or maybe you can find a way to handle it, first make yourself understand that it's a compulsion 