Signs…

Hi everyone! I have never posted on here before but i’m not really sure what else i can do. I have a concert coming up (tomorrow) that i have been waiting a year for. I am extremely excited, but over the past few months ive been having a lot of obsessive thoughts that something bad will happen at the event and i will get really hurt. After these thoughts it makes me worried and contemplate whether it is intuition, or if it’s just an obsessive thought. Just wondering if anyone else has ever had these worries/thoughts before going to a big event!

Recently I’ve come back to God, specially Christianity. I prayed and wrote to God for a sign concerning a mistake I made, and put within this letter for him to show me a yellow car if everything is going to be ok. Kid you not, same day I see a yellow truck parked while driving. I believe I was answered but my mind keeps nagging me I wasn’t. Do you think this is the devil and ocd trying to downplay what I prayed and wrote to God for? I know you shouldn’t ask for signs and wonders, but I desperately needed one.

I grew up very Catholic, but maybe that doesn’t matter here. How can I untangle from the thought that every coincidence is a “sign” from god or the universe? This has latched onto so many different areas of my life and now it’s on my daughters health/safety. Reading a story and there is a dead kid in it—must be a sign!! Getting a random name in my head and it’s someone who died—a sign of the worst to come!! Signs, jinxing, manifesting, etc. were always reinforced when I was growing up (and today in some cases too)—“it must be a sign!” Any ideas on how I can untangle from this?