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- 51w ago
is there something wrong with me
the fact that we are all real scares the shit out of me, idk if this is existential ocd anymore
the fact that we are all real scares the shit out of me, idk if this is existential ocd anymore
I can relate. Knowing that this is my OCD, I choose not to engage with or judge my OCD thoughts and watch them float on. Inherently, some of these existential questions have no answers. That being the case, I accept the uncertainty that I (or anyone else) do not know & rather than doing compulsions, I pass it on to my higher power and move forward living life in the present and in accordance with my values - My purpose in life is to have peace with myself and those around me. Hope this helps and know that you are not alone.
I get these thoughts all the time, too much actually. And I self reflect into oblivion, but idk what type of OCD I have. I was recently diagnosed, but haven't gone any further yet into my diagnosis. But I completely understand and sympathize with your fear. You're not alone.
That’s kinda my question. All my thoughts feel so realistic and so now I doubt if they are ocd and if I just can’t make my mind up about something and I’m using ocd as an excuse or something idc I feel like this post is word vomit.
Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
i’m so scared im going to lose control and end up locked up or something. this is so exhausting!! i worry that what i have isn’t OCD and that im genuinely insane and im gonna end up in big trouble or that the urges i have are going to actually happen. i dont want to think these things ! i feel like a horrible human being!!
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