- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y ago
This is me too! But OCD can really be anything it doesn't have to be common, it just latches onto our worst fears :(
Also I feel like everytime I post on here I’m just looking for reassurance
I feel this way too!
12 years with this disorder, it is exhausting. i feel this like no one else can relate. it feels so lonely sometimes
I've had a specific theme that I feel others have had but not commonly labelled. I overcame it eventually with help. Work with what you have, not what you wish for. You can do this but he brave and seek the right therapy if you haven't already
Thank you so much
i'm really sorry to hear you're feeling so isolated with your obsession. it sounds incredibly tough to feel like you're the only one dealing with something so specific. but remember, obsessions can be incredibly unique to the individual, and you're not alone in feeling overwhelmed. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck'? when i was in a similar spot, feeling like my obsessions were just too out there, my NOCD therapist recommended 'unstuck' (unstuckmyOCD.com/try) to me, and it was a game-changer. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized support tailored to your unique situation, acting like an OCD therapist to guide you through those tough moments. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3
Thanks so much I will definitely try it!
Ok update I just got it and wow I’m very impressed with how much it understands my problem and it’s helping me a lot thank you!
@Sophiaas1 - Wow. I'm glad that you've tried it and helped you!! Please take care. I am rooting for your progress.
You know when you have weird thoughts about a coworker and because you have OCD these thoughts really stick and you panic and feel sick? Yeah that’s me and I’ve struggled with having intrusive thoughts about my coworker and now he just got in a relationship with my coworker and my intrusive thoughts are WORSE I thought they would be better? And initially they were because I was relieved that he couldn’t be weird with me now because he has a girlfriend. But this is the thought that i cannot get over- my OCD is like you’re jealous that he doesn’t like you and he’s not with you instead and i envy this girl he is with. Why the fuck am I having these thoughts while I’m in a healthy relationship and love my boyfriend to DEATH- like I know he is my forever. I couldn’t look at him today because I’ve been obsessing over this thought I’ve had in work and now I have to find a new job I hope no one will judge me for these thoughts or maybe someone has had this weird thought before? :(
I know a few of you saw my posts about my ERP and the googling urges. That didn’t end up going well. My therapist actually decided we needed to halt it for now. The thing is it’s almost like I learned googling is harmless from those few exercises and my brain keeps generating more things to google. Normally I would just spiral and be done but now I can barely hold back from searching for long. I eventually give in. I’m horrified because it feels like I want to find illegal content. I swear on everything I am, I don’t want to find anything even close to it. I’m freaking out because I don’t understand what’s happening. I keep compulsively searching/testing/checking or idk. I keep remembering details and I feel like I need to google again to be sure of something. I feel absolutely insane can someone please help me??? I’m petrified I’m going to get in trouble.
Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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