Regret over P*rn usage

@nothisispatrick I’m sorry to hear that you were exposed to that . I also worry you know that mabye what I watched was illegal and the government are building a case against me and arrest me one day . I wish I never was exposed but I’m also going to try ERP for this . Hopefully there will be some progress 🥺

@Dannyr It’s horrible isn’t it . I’ve gone couple months without it almost 6 or so but I still fear and worry I saw illegal stuff previously. But I’m so proud of you for fixing ur relationship and you only have good things coming for you after quitting 💪🏽 best of luck x

@lavender1010 Well, you need to give yourself some slack, if you seen something illegal when you were younger, it doesn’t make you a bad person, especially since you weren’t looking for it. OCD is telling you that you need to figure it out… “am I this bad person?” The answer is no, but OCD is feeding you more poison the more you ask that question. The only trick is to understand that those thoughts are not yours, and once you hear them, imagine them like someone next to you said it rather than yourself, because it’s not you, and even if you did watch something illegal, you will never know the answer. And looking for the answer only brings more torture. Hope that helps.

@Dannyr thank you for the response ! That’s true I’ve been driving myself mad tryna figure out if I am a bad person but when you’re in the depths of addiction it’s hard to have any reasonable excuses for the way I was . I agree searching for the answer will not bring any conclusion I will try keeping it that way thank you 🙏

@lavender1010 Good, just keep reminding yourself that you don’t need the answers. The past is in the past, just focus on shaping your future.

@Anonymous 224 Sure you can . I’m sorry you’re going through this , this post may have triggered it for you . I am scared every day I seek reassurance here ai and I haven’t watched that sort of video content in a long time but my mind tells me you watched bad things and you will be arrested if that was the case I would’ve be quite soon but still logic doesn’t work

@lavender1010 graphic btw!!!So I suffered from so ocd and rocd and harm ocd and religious ocd and ocd in general. So it all started from a what if I’m secretly gay thought in 2024 it went away in 2025 January and it came back this month. It brought back stuff from when I was 12-13 or around there. I’m straight and I was addicted to jerking off and js jerked off to any woman. And it led to that but incest and even jerking off to a trans woman but I didn’t understand genders and stuff ofc I was young and even my friends called trans girls fine before but didn’t know they were trans. I’ve always liked a girl who was born a girl and had a crush on a girl or liked straight porn and only was interested in a straight relationship who i registered as a girl based off the look. And ocd is telling me cuz of that it means I’m gay or that I’m bi or that I’m not straight in general. I have a gf that I’ve liked since the 10th grade and I started dating her in 2024 when all this started well right before me and her it started. We have been together for 2 years we have had our ups and downs and we are trying to be better in our relationship for eachother. But these thoughts have came back and have been telling me what I don’t want.

@Anonymous 224 Okay , first of all you were a child when your exposed to that at a young age you brain doesn’t really have the capability to comprehend the labels of sexuality till your a bit older . You’ve been with your girlfriend for 2 years and the fact you’re with her right now means you’re attracted to her and whatever you went through in your past doesn’t define your sexuality . A lot of people watch things that don’t align with their sexuality or do things that are out of character but all that matters is that you two are together and you should probably try and communicate with her more to resolve any concerns and maybe stay off any adult websites as well as it can affect you especially with SO- OCD . Hope that helps xx

@lavender1010 I was exposed to it in elementary. Idk it feels like I’m Not attracted I mean yes she does get me like yk turned on but what if I can’t be especially cuz we’ve recently had problems but been trying our best to fix things. But those thoughts really threw me off and everyday have been. I’ve been panicking crying scared and anxious for the past two weeks. I don’t wanna be anything else but straight and know that.

@Anonymous 224 I think in my opinion you are attracted but the ocd is causing a fog in your perception of that . I think practicing ERP terms such as “ mabye I am not attracted mabye I am “ will help you a lot . Deep down you know what you are but you might not be able to see it right now but through ERP consistently you will

@lavender1010 I know it’s like whenever I’m with her I’m js anxious all the time cuz my mind is going through a bunch of thoughts about her and our relationship.

@Anonymous 224 The best thing to do is sit either that uncertainty and see the anxiety reduce . Right now I’m trying to sit either the uncertainty that mabye I did see something illegal or disgusting and mabye I am going to be arrested and it scared the shit out of me but I’m trying to sit with it .

@lavender1010 We both are gonna get through this we aren’t our thoughts nor are we bad people right. Much luck and god bless🙏

@Anonymous 224 🥺🫶🏽