Why does nothing feel fulfilling?

I’m new here my sister said she used this app to help as a place to rant which is nice. She says I also have OCD and it kinda sounds like I do. For whatever reason recently I’ve found myself not feeling complete or whole without talking to or being with my GF. I am in college right now and me and my roommates are mostly just hangout when we’re inside and want to. The past few days have been hell for me I just quit nicotine Ive stopped taking some of my Adderall meds because my anxiety is so bad but when I bring it all back to where I think it starts it’s all with my girlfriend. I just am so obsessed and love her with all my being it’s like I can’t breathe or be myself without her. I only find her apartment comfortable my place seems cold and dark. Just lying with her and being in her presence makes me so calm. So even when she’s at home and not doing anything and I’m home watching Tv or whatever I can’t help but feel this got wrenching feeling that makes me feel sick. It’s even worse when she goes out to the bars or anything like that. I don’t even know what my fears are anymore I just feel like puking and crying and I just wanna hold her. I feel disgusting for being so possessive. I just wish I could explain to her how I felt without making her feel like I’m dropping everything if that makes sense. I just wish there was a fix I’ve never felt like this in my life and this has only started in the past few weeks. Help.

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Date posted: Yesterday

Hello! I'm single, so I might not be in the same situation, but I understand wanting someone there. I hear you, and I know it isn't easy. Have you told anyone that you feel this way? Also, are you seeing a therapist that you can discuss this with?

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Date posted: Yesterday

I deal with a similar feeling. I have difficulty leaving my apartment or doing things without my fiance. It was at its worst when I was in the thick of a depressive episode and I cried every time he left for work or I had to leave for work. Now I’m not as sad as I was but I am still trying to figure out how to do things on my own and it is terrifying. It’s really hard to be nice to yourself when you feel like this but I hope you can try. I think there’s a difference between being possessive and needing extra care from your loved ones during a harder season in life. I think with ocd we always think the worst of it, that we are possessive, evil, manipulative. However it doesn’t seem like you like are actually possessive. I think people who are possessive don’t worry about being possessive. If you feel comfortable maybe share a little of how you are feeling. I have to share what is going on in my head little by little with my fiance because a lot of times I feel too overwhelmed or ashamed to share all of it. Each time I share more though it helps me to feel not so crazy. Now he will encourage me to do one small thing if I feel up to it and he celebrates my little win if I do it but he’s also understanding if I don’t do it. Also finding a therapist and maybe even a psychiatrist would probably be beneficial, it’s what’s been helping me

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