SO-OCD

I’ve been struggling a lot recently with intrusive thoughts and images of the same gender, and I’ll often get a groinal response out of pure terror which then fuels hyperawareness to the groin and to salivation which then makes my whole body burn and ruins my whole day out of fear of it meaning something about myself despite all the evidence in my past that I am straight (e.g having a baby on the way, only being attracted to women), I try to tell myself that it’s all OCD and it is a lie, but the groinal response just keeps me in this horrible spiral constantly, to the point that I have nightmares about it, does anyone else have this problem? I’m so exhausted because of it and I can’t sleep because the intrusive thoughts keep me awake for hours on end, I’m getting the help I need but the wait is crippling :(

flippy15

Date posted: 8d

I have zero attraction toward the same sex not a doubt about that but when I label myself None of them feel Right and I’m filled with doubt and I jsut don’t want to care so I can move on

Fcukocd

Date posted: 8d

@flippy15 Me too, no attraction but still have doubt, I’m just hoping that when I get into therapy I’ll be able to handle it better

rad_gh0st

Date posted: 9d

groinal responses are a bitch! i struggle w POCD and until recently i thought groinal responses made me a monster. it's scary to not have control over your body and unfortunately OCD loves to hijack. there are some really great articles about groinal responses on the NOCD website and reading those really helped me understand wtf my body is doing haha as far as the intrusive thoughts, i'm sorry you're going through that friend. i also used to struggle a lot w SO-OCD, but it was the opposite of yours - i'm gay and kept worrying i was straight lol. i don't struggle w that theme anymore. and i'm still gay 😅

Fcukocd

Date posted: 9d

@rad_gh0st Yeah it’s horrible, I get them all the time and I’m really struggling with it, I’m straight and always have been but these groinal responses make me question it, it’s a real bitch fighting between what I know and what the ocd screams

Fcukocd

Date posted: 9d

@rad_gh0st Hopefully in time the struggle with it will stop like it did for you, I’ve struggled with all sorts of subtypes, like POCD, relationship OCD, harm OCD, n each time that a theme shifts the OCD always finds a way to one up the last theme, it’s such a pain

flippy15

Date posted: 8d

@rad_gh0st It’s amazing how it can work in the direction. When you realized you were gay what the difference between what you were feeling and someone else thinking they are gay when they aren’t? When you said I’m gay you weren’t filled with anxiety or fear? I’m so confused why my brain is doing this and hearing I’m gay in my head all day long . How did you get passed it for once and for all? Thanks for the help

rad_gh0st

Date posted: 8d

@Fcukocd yep i totally understand. groinals made me question everything bc why is it happening if the attraction isn't real right? researching what causes a groinal response reaaaally helped me. i've always been very into anatomy and physiology, so seeing there is an actual tangible explanation gave me immense relief. and it wasn't like compulsive reassurance, i have fully overcome the negative thoughts about myself when it happens. it's fucking annoying still, but i know it's just my body responding to my ocd being an asshole lol

Fcukocd

Date posted: 8d

@rad_gh0st Yeah I try to remember it’s just OCD, like I will look up pictures of my same gender and nothing will happen, zero attraction, zero feeling down there, but then when I ruminate or talk about the EXACT same thing, it causes groinal response, it is so fucking frustrating 😩

rad_gh0st

Date posted: 7d

@flippy15 i know i typed a response to this, but i don't see my comment 🤔 i probably got distracted and didn't hit send 🤦🏻‍♂️ when i first realized i was gay, i had anxiety, but it wasn't related to my ocd. i was nervous about telling my friends and family and the societal aspects of being gay, but i wasn't afraid of actually being gay, if that makes sense. but then a few years after i came out, i started getting SO-OCD symptoms of fearing i wasn't really gay, like worries i was just faking it or confused, even tho i'd already fully accepted the fact i was gay. i was distressed at the thought of liking women and being straight. i don't care about that anymore which is why i think my SO-OCD symptoms went away for the most part, but i'm also not in a relationship, and i could see the symptoms coming back if i was in a serious relationship with a guy bc not like men would be detrimental to that relationship why's OCD gotta be such a hoe? 🤣😅

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 25w

People with SO-OCD please view🙏🏼

So my ocd theme changed to sexual orientation ocd last December after I heard a popular video "hi, I'm Gibby" and I went like the Gibby sounds like "gay", then I started saying the phrase and over days, I started getting intrusive thoughts "I'm gay" .(I have had other ocd themes: (magical thinking ocd, symmetry ocd, health concern ocd, religious and spirituality ocd and harm ocd ever since I was 12, they just come and go)....I struggle with other conditions(ASD and bipolar disorder). I have never struggled with sexuality or questioned it because I have only liked males right from when I was in grade 1🥲...I still like them. SO-OCD is very frustrating because deep down I know I'm straight and there's no evidence I'm not but the intrusive thoughts and compulsions to get relief (the cycle) won't stop. I'm on fluoxetine(Prozac) and it did help my symptoms but lately I realised I'm more consumed with compulsions and idk but I think it's reducing the effects of the drugs?.. I see an attractive female and my mind goes like you found her attractive you must be gay or I want to go out and do sumn"what if you discover you like them or are gay" ...idk it's frustrating, very and I'm tired. I don't even get turned on by same sex or any😭that what even makes it more confusing.+ It's almost like I'm now hypervigilant when Watching videos or Instagram reels...it making me forget that finding someone physically attractive≠sexual attraction...idk if anyone gets me...(Rn my ocd themes are SO-OCD and religious and spirituality ocd) SO-OCD is frustrating, I'm tireddd...how can I never have struggled with sexuality for almost a decade and half but I'm having it now(it's started two months ago)...who has had/have this theme??

Vee <3

Date posted: 14w

Heyyyy!

So my OCD has been bad lately. I’ve been ruminating and obsessing over my sexuality again. And it just keeps getting worse. I hate it so much. I try to sit with the discomfort but then my ocd does the backdoor spike. And the groinal response is what keeps me looped. It SUCKS. I am not attracted to men, but my OCD is trying SO hard to convince me that I am. There have been days where I’m just so mentally exhausted that I “accept” what my ocd tells me and I just walk around a hollow, lethargic shell. But then I rethink it and I feel better. It feels like I can only find my TRUE self when I tire my nervous system out enough that it literally breaks down and has me suicidal and hopeless. And then accepting my OCD’s “truth” (that I’m attracted to men) feels like a burden and a chore. I woke up today from an OCD dream, tried to go back to sleep, and my stomach kept cramping bc I was so anxious and ruminating over my intrusive thoughts. I’m starting to doubt it being OCD anymore. My brain is too tired to fight and cry about it anymore.

Sexual Orientation OCD

RW95

Date posted: 13w

Has anyone gone through this, or currently going through it, need to know that I am not alone in this (18+)

I can't look at 18+ videos, comics, etc. I am straight, but SO-OCD tries to make me think I am not And the thoughts turns to feelings, and makes me scared, uncomfortable, sad, because I know this is not me. And when I try to imagine myself being with the woman on adult videos, and comics, my OCD gives gronal response not at the girl, and it fills me with fear, and anxiety, I always loved, and was attracted to women but I can't and it caused me to be depressed, and I keep ruminating I keep trying to focus on her, but it's so bad that I avoid those all the time now. I am wondering has anyone gone through something like this, or currently is, and wondering how you have done to combat this!

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