- Date posted
- 7w
sad
will i ever be free or is this all there is for the rest of my life
will i ever be free or is this all there is for the rest of my life
When you start to learn that a thought is not a threat you start to feel better. We control our behaviors not OCD, once you build tolerance of this idea you start to feel better. Remember just because we think something does not make it true.
We will never be free but we will successfully manage it and live a very good 'normal' life
Ocd will always be there in the background but you def can feel free once you recover and don't actively engage in compulsions :) Ocd won't be as noticeable anymore. ERP is lifesaving
HI 2005. For many people they are able to transition their concerns with OCD from being a major disruption in their lives into a minor annoyance. So, while symptoms never disappear completely a person's quality of life can experience drastic improvement. ERP treatment and accompanying homework activities can be a very effective means to use for reducing the frequency, intensity, and duration of intrusive thoughts, images, or urges that are hallmarks of the OCD experience.
Many folks feel uncertain about the future when dealing with OCD. The path to feeling free can be fraught with challenges, but it is possible to travel. Hope and help are available to guide you along the way. At NOCD, we can also assist you in finding outside help, if needed. Here is an additional resource: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/how-therapy-helped-me-gain-back-all-that-ocd-had-tried-to-take/
Everyone has their “hard” thing in life that they have to manage. Some people have multiple hard things. It may never go away but managing is where we can find freedom.
I can't stop thinking about ending my life. I feel like I'm not even living, I'm just surviving. Everyone is capable of being a person and functioning and I'm just stuck here avoiding everything. My psychiatrist said my ocd is severe and it will all take time and I'll start erp and I'm already on medication but I just feel so depressed and like I won't be able to handle erp and it's already too late for me. I feel inhuman, it's debilitating. My major theme is just fear or contamination, I can't even make myself a meal I can't touch anything in the kitchen. I get stuck in the shower for 2 hours and when I don't shower because I'm depressed I feel like a walking germ. My hands are a mess, my school work is shit, I avoid and avoid and I'm just so tired of "living" like this. My psychiatrist said they don't have any therapists available right now like.... excuse me? What do you mean u don't have any 😭 I honestly don't even know why I'm typing this becuase nothing helps, nothing ever will. I'm so deep into this I can't get out, my room looks like shit, I can't live in this body anymore, I really can't. I let everyone down, I am and will be such a dissapointment. I don't have any dreams or goals or passions I just wasn't made to be here. I don't know how or who to ask for help like there's nothing anyone can do, I'm already on meds. I can't keep being like this, seeing everyone judge me for acting insane.
Everyday I wake up, all my mind makes me think of is the stuff I’ve done in the past, like all day I’m in a constant cycle of judging who I used to be and it hurts so so much. I wish I never thought to do those things, I wish I had been more mature than how I was before, it’s really lowering my self worth and I don’t think I’ve ever felt this miserable before, like last summer was the worst because I was dealing with this shit, I about almost ended my life over it, and I thought it would get better, which it did, but it didn’t last but for a while. As soon as it became 2025 I was going through it again, having constant cycles of “I’m a good person” to “I’m the worst person imaginable” and I’m so sick of it because I just want to feel like the good person l like to imagine myself to be, but I can’t because of shit I did in the past that I obsess over. I’ve cried and screamed so much over it and it seems like it will never leave me.
Im only 20 and Ive been crying. I am not diagnosed with OCD yet but it lines up. I'm so scared its not, these physical sensations and urges are so horrible and I just wanna hide myself from this earth. It feels so real. I'd rather not feel any arousal than experience it, no matter if its something I like or not. I want to be free from this hell.
Share your thoughts so the Community can respond