Sorry guys for not being on š I was in the hospital because I couldn't walk. I've been diagnosed with FND (Functional Neurological Disorder). I'm sorry for any worries I have caused and not being on to help. Please have a wondrous day.
im sorry that you've been struggling. i'm sure anyone seeing your post will be glad to hear from you. is there some relief now that you've been diagnosed (i hope that's not intrusive to ask, if so, ignore that completely š )? i know it must still be just as frustrating as it was before. i hope things get better from hereā¤ļøāš©¹. rest well
Thank you so much, and yes, it is very relieving. I just wish I wasn't in pain all the time. I can't even skateboard. TwT
@š¤SavageGirlš¤ i'm glad there's some relief. progress is always good. but ugh I know it must be infuriating as well. š¤
@moon027097 - It is. Thank you for your understanding. <3
I'm so sorry... that is a hard diagnosis to hear. I hope there is a treatment going forward to help you. I hope you are able to walk now... or at least intermittently. All light and positive energy coming your way.
I can now, actually! I wanted to see my fiance. <3
I was going to look up fnd, but thank you for posting what it means. Are you able to walk at all now? Hoping the best for youšÆ. Glad youāre back
Yup! I'm stubborn and wanted to snuggles with my fiance. <3
@š¤SavageGirlš¤ Thatās whatās up!!!! Motivation at its finest. Good for youš
@Someonemaybe - Thank you <3 I beat him at a football board game too >< He's a sore loser <3
@š¤SavageGirlš¤ Thatās just awesome š¤£. My daughter and i played War, the card game, for hours nearly everyday she was in the hospital. I miss some things about those days, mainly the time i got with her one on one. We would get in so much trouble adventuring but weāre always forgiven lol.
@Someonemaybe - >< That's amazing
@š¤SavageGirlš¤ It really was awesome, very difficult times but man we made the best out of it. Sounds like you are too and thatās the good stuff! Just donāt accidentally end up on the psych ward like we did while playing on the elevators lol. You canāt leaveš¤£.
@Someonemaybe - >< True dat!! I'm also in school while helping out here.
@š¤SavageGirlš¤ Iām sooooooo glad Iām done with school. If i can get where i want to go with what Iāve accomplished, Iāll never step foot in a college again lol. Not that itās a bad thing at all, Iām just not wanting to do that anymore lol. Grateful for what Iāve accomplished though. May i ask, what are you in school for? My last degree was in IT.
@Someonemaybe - I'm a senior actually! But I'll be going into veterinary. I want to be a veterinary Cardiopulmonary specialist in Houston, since my Honey wants to live in Texas. We'll see though. *^^*
@š¤SavageGirlš¤ That is awesome!!!! Thatās not an easy field, nobody likes to talk about their problemsš¤£. Then again, if they do talk, run! Sometimes i forget Iām probably older than most people i talk to lol. You have plans for after high school and that is so good, keep at it and never let life put in a change order without a fight. You guys are going to do some great things together!!
@Someonemaybe - No problem, I'm an old soul. I pray so. <3
TRIGGER WARNING Made on Sunday: So, my brother just came home today from a 4 month stay because he had gone manic and made some major threats. He had attacked someone tooā¦. So, I was super anxious. He seems to be alright, but Iām still worried that heāll hurt my parents or pets, and that Iāll snap if he does. Maybe Iām overthinking it?? I just donāt wanna go into a rage episode and hurt him, because he is my baby brother. *sigh* Since I was anxious earlier, I kept passing out repeatedly and started seizing afterwards. Iām just exhausted and sad and feel bad because I get scared and frustrated and tell my fiancĆ© to break up with me. I know he wonāt Iām just scared Iāll hurt everyone around me unintentionally. Iām tired of being in constant pain, Iām tired of the constant emotional rollercoasters, Iām tired of not being able to do or help with pretty much anything; Iām just tired. I donāt mean to bring anyone down, I just needed to vent. And Iām sorry Iām not on here all the time, I have a very strict schedule. And thatās another thing!! I feel so helpless because I canāt do anything. Mom gets frustrated because I refuse to do things or have to do them later and I wish she could just understand. I am doing my damndest to even stand up. I have so much vertigo (dizziness) from the pain Iām in and it really takes a toll. I want to help, to do extra like I used to. But I keep falling and the pain becomes unbearable. The pain meds arenāt working and so thatās gone out the window. I guess it just hurts because she gives me that look like Iām supposed to know whatās going on. I know sheās stressed with having to do everything, taking care of my brother, and her insane workload, so Iām giving her some slack, but itās still hard. I wish she new how bad I work just to live my life.
Just been discharged from hospital outpatients after operation and 3 month recovery. There was an ultrasound on eyes and possibility of radiotherapy treatment for a spot there, but turned out it was benign. OCD was quiet during this time. However, now OCD has come back big time, and I'm wishing I hadn't been so fortunate with diagnosis. Tired of going through this like groundhog day, and worried that there will come a time where I won't cope. Can't tell anymore if this is OCD or I'm just losing my mind. All plans and dreams gone now.
So today I've been having issues with walking (my legs shake and my right leg is at an odd angle), and my brain goes "Stop faking this. You're being dramatic." So I decided to try it. Told myself that I was going to truly stop "faking it" and take a step. Same thing happened with the shaking, so then I started freaking out. Now I make jokes and yes, I am going on the stairs as a compulsion to the "stop faking" thoughts. I almost fell a couple times, but I'm not very good at not engaging in them. TwT There is no medical reason that has been found yet, so that's where this stems from.
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