Loosing my mind please help me

I feel like im loosing my mind. I feel like i experience derealization or what. I feel confused like very very confused. I cant even think normally. Im just tired. I feel like im loosing myself. Im scared that everyone tells me that i have OCD, but what if this is all true? I dont think and im scared that other so-ocd sufferers dont feel this way as i do. I feel literally, LITERALLY so convinced that this must be true. It feels like i already accepted that this is true. Im done. My brain is broken. I even started to have thoughts like what if i have schizophrenia or dissociative identity disorder. Help me please. Do i have psychosis or what?

Username: tanya_heretanya_here

Date posted: 15w ago

You’re not alone! I’m currently going through terrible derealization that’s making my SO-OCD symptoms so much worse and deeply confusing. They seem indistinguishable from “me” (if “me” is still there) like I’ve already accepted it, and “do I even care anymore?” It’s miserable, even if my brain says otherwise.

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 15w ago

I got to this point in July. I have NEVER experienced derealization before and it was SO scary. I found myself asking " why am I even here, this is miserable, what is the point of life" and I wasn't really suicidal I just was absent from a purpose and only felt pain, anxiety, fear, and confusion. This was my rock bottom and my turning point for starting medication. 2 months later I'm me again. It was HELL getting adjusted and waiting for the meds to kick in but once they did OH I cried with relief. i think you might be at that point. no, you don't have psychosis, you are too coherent for that. Iv seen psychosis in a family member, they arent aware they have it. Your body and brain are just SO TIRED. I bet you're not sleep for crap or eating,, lost a lot of weight, don't go outside much, work or school is suffering, you feel like you could throw up every morning? sound familiar? if it does. its exhaustion, nothing else. and its OCD induced. talk to your dr about some short term and long term medication options. i used a mild LOW dose benzo to get sleep, I FORCED myself to eat while I waited for the SSRI to kick in. Sleep and good and sunshine REALLY do help.

Username: ninkaninganinkaninga

Date posted: 15w ago

@TexasOCD41 I dont know if it was derealization or what but yes i felt so confused like i might loosing myself and thoughts like “what is happening to me?” lately i also have noticed that i get weird suicide thoughts like “can i choke myself?” “can i overdose myself with vitamins?” “Whats the easiest way to die?” “Do i want to kill myself?” “Should i harm myself with the knife?” I dont wanna do it. The thing is…i dont really have troubles to fall asleep or sleep in general. I even think that i sleep too much. My school hasnt started yet so i dont know. Maybe then i will be better because i will be distracted. These past few days i dont really eat lunch tbh because i dont really want it. Idk why, maybe because i dont really like the food but i do eat quite a lot in general. And yes im afraid of psychosis. What if im gonna experience it? Its scary. Then i get thoughts like “maybe im just a psycho”. Im suffering from SO-OCD for 6 years, but besides, I have these weird psycho thoughts now. perhaps as a consequence😔😔

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 15w ago

@ninkaninga Honestly you’re currently suffering from harm ocd too. Also, fearing psychosis is also a subset of harm ocd ( you’re fearing a type of harm to your mental health) https://youtu.be/uao5xAfbG88?si=aqRJeDGOsQUdJL2E watch this and some f his other videos. He has helped me SOOO MUCH. this video is literally about “ what if I’m experiencing psychosis “

Username: ninkaninganinkaninga

Date posted: 15w ago

@TexasOCD41 Thank you, ive never really thought about this as a form of harm ocd 🫤

Username: TexasOCD41TexasOCD41

Date posted: 15w ago

@ninkaninga It really is. Anything that’s a feared harmful outcome to yourself or others fall into that category.

Username: DimitrisH

Date posted: 22w ago

Existential ocd?

Does anyone had or have the existential fear of our brain functions. I have so much hyperawareness in my thoughts, I focus all the time in my feelings and my intentions in order to check if I am strange or not and if I have control of my actions. I do psychotherapy 4 years and I thought I was fine. But this June I had a derealization episode(or ocd) , after that a depersonalization episode (or ocd) and after that I have obsessions about our existence and that every aspect in our lives has to do with our brain and for some reason these thoughts scary me. I know that at some point is ocd but I am very confused why this thoughts scary me so much. I observe others and I am curious how it's possible not to think about that and this make it worse . I am so anxious because obviously we are our brain ,I know that and brain has to do with everything,but I don't know why it make me anxious and if it's possible to live without these thoughts. I do many compulsion but my biggest is to figure out if I have compulsion in order to figure out if my thoughts is ocd or delusions. It's so real and these thoughts really bother me. Any other with same experience?

Username: malevvolent

Date posted: 17w ago

pleas help me

I dont know if I have ocd really but I think I do because I have the intrusive thoughts and I always try and do things to soothe the anxiety. I've been dealing with this for a few months and this is a debilitating cycle and I wish I wad normal. when I first spoke to my therapist about it, she said that people with ocd like to clean and count a certain amount of tiles and stuff like that. I really want to get tested because I want help but im scared that if they say I don't have ocd then that means my intrusive thoughts are true and that I'm the person that my mind makes me think I am and it scares me. I mostly deal with symptoms of pocd so I try my best to avoid kids and sometimes I won't even want to go in public because of it and I count in my head a lot and try and see if my body is reacting any kind of way. I also try and just push the thoughts a way and do research and sometimes it makes me feel better but in reality it's just a cycle and it's terrifying so can someone please comfort me or give me advice and tips to help me feel better because I really need it. I just want to get help and stop this cycle because it's slowly killing me. I don't want to be the person my head thinks I am but in my head it's just constant fear anxiety and uncertainty.

Username: Pipipopo

Date posted: 15w ago

PLEASE HELP

I feel like I'm fucking crazy. It literally feels like my ocd has a plan to hurt people like overtime my mind has made a plan and I was already questioning myself because I'm doing erp. I don't want to hurt people but my mind literally feels like its fully ready to do something. I can't do this.

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