Feeling awful

I feel like my situation is the worst thing in the world. I feel guilty and shameful every time i post on this app. You arent alone

What makes you think you're special? We all make mistakes and have regrets. We all aim not to repeat them. However, some of us choose to learn from these mistakes by helping others avoid the same pitfalls, while others succumb to guilt and self-loathing. It's important to love yourself. Whenever you feel guilty, remind yourself: "I am a good person; otherwise, I wouldn't feel remorse for my actions." Appreciate yourself for having a functioning and active conscience, and channel your energy into helping others. Let helping others become your new focus. You are a good person with a healthy moral compass, which many lack. Now, use this energy positively by reaching out to others, rather than turning it inward against yourself

You can't simply eliminate OCD or attempt to cancel it. Again our brains are designed with a function similar to garbage collection. It's important to recognize this process and understand its purpose, which is essentially to advise you on what to discard. By viewing it correctly and understanding your relationship with it, you can see that it is not a reflection of you. Most importantly, realize that you are in control, and this mental "maid" is there to serve you. Prioritize loving and caring for yourself above all else is another key. I pray for peace and recovery to you, and all of you. Amin!

If you’d like, you can talk about it with me! I am younger, but you’ve helped me out and I really wanna repay you! You’ve been really helpful and encouraging, and I know you’re not a bad person. If you need to tell me, you can. If you don’t want to, you don’t have to! But just remember, mistakes are apart of our life, especially our younger years. Mistakes are what help us grow and I’m sure you’re not the worst person. You’re amazing. It’s okay 🫂

What if your desire for seclusion is truly what you want, and your mind is crafting thoughts to support your wish to be alone? Being away from others might not be beneficial either. People might misunderstand your intentions and turn you into a subject of gossip, which you say you want to avoid. Confessing your guilt can also be harmful. Why worry about what others think of you? It seems like you're placing too much importance on their opinions. Remember, you are the one who can lift yourself out of this situation. It's crucial to value yourself more than others. Protect your own feelings before concerning yourself with those of others. You are a good person and deserve not to suffer because of an imperfect world, which God intended as a training ground for a better one. Yes, be a little selfish and take care of yourself before others. I am confident you will overcome this condition, and I believe you have the strength within you. Have a wonderful day!

Another thought, which came as my reply to another post... Our brain needs to store memories somewhere, much like a computer. However, it has limited space for storing these experiences. So, what does the brain do? It performs a kind of "garbage collection" each day. It sifts through old and dusty boxes of memories, opens them to see what's inside (which explains why forgotten memories sometimes resurface), and then clears out space for new information. Basically your brain is asking you to reclaim those boxes and let them go, and you are telling your brain, I am not sure, let me do some thinking (compulsion) , and I will revisit them later, and the cycle continues. You need to tell your brain, this space in my mind better utilized by something else.

Maybe recognizing that these aren't your thoughts, but rather a mechanism or a mental "maid" tidying up your brain, can make things easier. When this maid uncovers an old, dusty box of memories that needs discarding, she presents it to you for approval. You're the boss, and your role is simply to decide whether to keep or discard what she presents.