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I have compulsions I did 10 years ago because of my pocd that still haunt me today. How do I forgive myself and move on?
I have compulsions I did 10 years ago because of my pocd that still haunt me today. How do I forgive myself and move on?
Have mercy on yourself, you are human and we make mistakes. You can’t expect to have a controlled behavior and be perfect. No, no one is. I’m dealing with anger issues and it’s hard because I end up feeling guilty and very I pleased with myself. But let’s remind ourselves that we are hurt. We are simply looking for a way to cope with our hurt. You have to just let it all go and accept it. You may have heard this many times before but I mean it when I say your past does not define You. It really doesn’t . Let that sink in for a minute, choosing to dwell in the past is what makes all the difference. You have to be your own cheerleader, I’m sure you already have people being hard on you and having others hurt you. So why add yourself into that list? Be strong and be merciful to yourself!!💜
Thank you it's tough
You have an illness. And you are probably deeply hurt by it. All those things I did because I was simply in pain… I try to forgive myself. But it’s not easy and not always at sight. I get it.
It is an illness, I just hate that it involved my young daughter and I feel so guilty
@Jesse1982 That’s totally understandable
@elliss2 - Thanks for the support
This is the HARDEST thing about OCD, but it also just comes with the personality type that people with OCD tend to have and that’s perfectionism. We all have things that we did or said that bother us, but what matters is what we do moving forward. If we’re actively trying to better ourselves, then the mistake we made a month ago, a year ago, or even 10 years ago doesn’t matter. What matters is what have you done to fix and help yourself to not make the same mistakes younger you did. 💜
I did a few sexual compulsions (only with myself of course) in the past (2 months ago , did it couple of times) and I regret it BADLY I want to die every time because of that because of the guilt that I can’t handle it I feel like a monster I can’t move on from this. I feel like I deserve nothing in life. I prefer to kill myself then do it again. Like what went on my mind. I wanted to check and get rid of the thought but I can’t live with the shame. I posted this a few times but cant move on. What I did was BAD sexual compulsion. My therapist said to me that people with ocd can have a sever compulsions. And I think I told her about this compulsion but I think she forgot so I’m planning to said it to her again so she will tell me if it’s actually ocd or not. And the fact that I did have another themes before Pocd but I don’t know if I have Pocd anymore cause I feel like a monster and like I crossed the line. I’m terrified that I went to far. I regret I badly. There is not a single day I’m not thinking about it and want to kill my self. That compulsion is against my morals like I become the person I was afraid of all the time. The shame will it me until the day that I die
I’ve said and done so many hurtful things growing up, especially in elementary and middle school. I was very passive aggressive and mean for a majority of my life, and I’ve hurt peoples feelings. I’m no longer like that now, but every single thing I’ve ever done wrong replays in my head constantly, from the moment I wake up to the second I go to sleep. I know I deserve to feel the chronic guilt and shame, so I feel even more guilty pitying myself. It’s eating me alive, I’m so scared. I know people must hate me, and they have every right to. feel like I don’t deserve to have moments of happiness because I’ve taken that ability away from someone before. I’m not diagnosed, but this has been going on for years and I’m scared to talk to anyone about it because I fear they would look at me differently knowing I’ve hurt someone’s feelings. I feel like a monster. It’s ruining my life and I don’t know what to do.
I have made multiple mistakes in my past that lead me to believe im a bad person. thinking about them often sends me into a panic attack. i cant help but feel i need to be punished. i hate this feeling, what should i do?
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