- Username
- Jesse1982
- Date posted
- 28w ago
Help
I have compulsions I did 10 years ago because of my pocd that still haunt me today. How do I forgive myself and move on?
I have compulsions I did 10 years ago because of my pocd that still haunt me today. How do I forgive myself and move on?
Have mercy on yourself, you are human and we make mistakes. You can’t expect to have a controlled behavior and be perfect. No, no one is. I’m dealing with anger issues and it’s hard because I end up feeling guilty and very I pleased with myself. But let’s remind ourselves that we are hurt. We are simply looking for a way to cope with our hurt. You have to just let it all go and accept it. You may have heard this many times before but I mean it when I say your past does not define You. It really doesn’t . Let that sink in for a minute, choosing to dwell in the past is what makes all the difference. You have to be your own cheerleader, I’m sure you already have people being hard on you and having others hurt you. So why add yourself into that list? Be strong and be merciful to yourself!!💜
Thank you it's tough
You have an illness. And you are probably deeply hurt by it. All those things I did because I was simply in pain… I try to forgive myself. But it’s not easy and not always at sight. I get it.
It is an illness, I just hate that it involved my young daughter and I feel so guilty
@Jesse1982 That’s totally understandable
@elliss2 - Thanks for the support
This is the HARDEST thing about OCD, but it also just comes with the personality type that people with OCD tend to have and that’s perfectionism. We all have things that we did or said that bother us, but what matters is what we do moving forward. If we’re actively trying to better ourselves, then the mistake we made a month ago, a year ago, or even 10 years ago doesn’t matter. What matters is what have you done to fix and help yourself to not make the same mistakes younger you did. 💜
So, I was exposed to pornography at a very young age and it ruined my childhood. Of course, at the time I saw those disgusting, horrible and even illegal things and I liked them, but now I have to deal with the consequences of that, and I feel disgusting. When I got professional help, I was told that even if when I was a child and watched lolicon, for example, it is okay beacuse I didn't harm anyone. But I still feel guilty, I do not want to hurt real children, I had never had these intrusive thoughts about children, it is only now that I am overcoming my addiction that I realize how awful and harmful the things I've seen were. How do I forgive myself, and accept my past mistakes?
How do I forgive myself for things I did as a kid? Disgusting terrible illegal things? I’m grown and I would never do them now, but how do I move on?
OCD makes me feel like i am the scum of the earth and i believe it is true. i’ve done horrible things in the past when i was younger that i am not proud of. i know people say that we have to forgive ourselves for our past mistakes/know that our mistakes don’t define us or what not, but i feel like what i’ve done is irredeemable. although i was young back then, it dosent make it an excuse bc i am old enough to know it was wrong. why would i do that?? i’ve tried to forgive myself, but i keep going back in a loop bc of my OCD. what if i am using my OCD as an excuse? i don’t know what to do, please help.
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