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Help
I have compulsions I did 10 years ago because of my pocd that still haunt me today. How do I forgive myself and move on?
I have compulsions I did 10 years ago because of my pocd that still haunt me today. How do I forgive myself and move on?
Have mercy on yourself, you are human and we make mistakes. You can’t expect to have a controlled behavior and be perfect. No, no one is. I’m dealing with anger issues and it’s hard because I end up feeling guilty and very I pleased with myself. But let’s remind ourselves that we are hurt. We are simply looking for a way to cope with our hurt. You have to just let it all go and accept it. You may have heard this many times before but I mean it when I say your past does not define You. It really doesn’t . Let that sink in for a minute, choosing to dwell in the past is what makes all the difference. You have to be your own cheerleader, I’m sure you already have people being hard on you and having others hurt you. So why add yourself into that list? Be strong and be merciful to yourself!!💜
Thank you it's tough
You have an illness. And you are probably deeply hurt by it. All those things I did because I was simply in pain… I try to forgive myself. But it’s not easy and not always at sight. I get it.
It is an illness, I just hate that it involved my young daughter and I feel so guilty
@Jesse1982 That’s totally understandable
@elliss2 - Thanks for the support
This is the HARDEST thing about OCD, but it also just comes with the personality type that people with OCD tend to have and that’s perfectionism. We all have things that we did or said that bother us, but what matters is what we do moving forward. If we’re actively trying to better ourselves, then the mistake we made a month ago, a year ago, or even 10 years ago doesn’t matter. What matters is what have you done to fix and help yourself to not make the same mistakes younger you did. 💜
I did a few sexual compulsions (only with myself of course) in the past (2 months ago , did it couple of times) and I regret it BADLY I want to die every time because of that because of the guilt that I can’t handle it I feel like a monster I can’t move on from this. I feel like I deserve nothing in life. I prefer to kill myself then do it again. Like what went on my mind. I wanted to check and get rid of the thought but I can’t live with the shame. I posted this a few times but cant move on. What I did was BAD sexual compulsion. My therapist said to me that people with ocd can have a sever compulsions. And I think I told her about this compulsion but I think she forgot so I’m planning to said it to her again so she will tell me if it’s actually ocd or not. And the fact that I did have another themes before Pocd but I don’t know if I have Pocd anymore cause I feel like a monster and like I crossed the line. I’m terrified that I went to far. I regret I badly. There is not a single day I’m not thinking about it and want to kill my self. That compulsion is against my morals like I become the person I was afraid of all the time. The shame will it me until the day that I die
I have made multiple mistakes in my past that lead me to believe im a bad person. thinking about them often sends me into a panic attack. i cant help but feel i need to be punished. i hate this feeling, what should i do?
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
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