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- 51w ago
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Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
One thing i think abt tho, is if this was true, then thered be so many news reports of people with OCD acting out. Its almost always people that dont have the empathy to worry about something like that, that are actually dangerous. I remind myself to be proud that i care enough to be worried n sometimes it relieves some stress. Idk if thats just another form of rumination tho.
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@Speckles Me too, the hyper vigiliance is rlly debilitating especially when trying to form new friendships
My entire life I’ve always thought, people say it’s okay to make mistakes, but I feel like I’ve made a lot. WHEN will I make the mistake that just so tips the scales. And people say, alright, that’s it, too many mistakes, you’re officially a bad person.
@Kaitlyn🌸 Foreal, sometimes i wish i could just tell people every mistake ive ever made and let them judge me right then and there. that way i wouldnt have to live in fear, but i realize that’s counterproductive. I have kinda done that w friends family and my partner. I just wish i could stop caring so much about how people might view me cus i grew up with a lot of people around me making mistakes and i rarely ever judged them as hard as i judge myself
I used to, a long time ago
I’ve said and done so many hurtful things growing up, especially in elementary and middle school. I was very passive aggressive and mean for a majority of my life, and I’ve hurt peoples feelings. I’m no longer like that now, but every single thing I’ve ever done wrong replays in my head constantly, from the moment I wake up to the second I go to sleep. I know I deserve to feel the chronic guilt and shame, so I feel even more guilty pitying myself. It’s eating me alive, I’m so scared. I know people must hate me, and they have every right to. feel like I don’t deserve to have moments of happiness because I’ve taken that ability away from someone before. I’m not diagnosed, but this has been going on for years and I’m scared to talk to anyone about it because I fear they would look at me differently knowing I’ve hurt someone’s feelings. I feel like a monster. It’s ruining my life and I don’t know what to do.
Does anyone else experience this lingering fear and anxiety because they think they’re capable of hurting someone? It’s killing me. I feel like I’m such a danger. I feel like I’m a predator. I feel like this awful person and I can’t shake it. I want to carry on with my day but I can’t. I don’t feel like I deserve it. I feel like I’ve done awful things. I can’t stop crying.
Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.
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