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Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
Does anyone ever worry that they’re inherently a bad person just waiting to do something horrific?
One thing i think abt tho, is if this was true, then thered be so many news reports of people with OCD acting out. Its almost always people that dont have the empathy to worry about something like that, that are actually dangerous. I remind myself to be proud that i care enough to be worried n sometimes it relieves some stress. Idk if thats just another form of rumination tho.
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It makes me feel like I'm nuts
@Speckles Me too, the hyper vigiliance is rlly debilitating especially when trying to form new friendships
My entire life I’ve always thought, people say it’s okay to make mistakes, but I feel like I’ve made a lot. WHEN will I make the mistake that just so tips the scales. And people say, alright, that’s it, too many mistakes, you’re officially a bad person.
@Kaitlyn🌸 Foreal, sometimes i wish i could just tell people every mistake ive ever made and let them judge me right then and there. that way i wouldnt have to live in fear, but i realize that’s counterproductive. I have kinda done that w friends family and my partner. I just wish i could stop caring so much about how people might view me cus i grew up with a lot of people around me making mistakes and i rarely ever judged them as hard as i judge myself
I used to, a long time ago
Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
At the beginning of this year, I experienced false memories for the first time about watching bad stuff online, which I have never done in my life. I then turned to hours upon hours of googling and researching about it and reading articles about it. I'd sometimes google the same articles or topics multiple times a day. I then also remembered that I watched a clip once from Big Mouth (not knowing they were teens at the time). I became so afraid that I was being watched by the authorities or my ISP simply for doing research that I impulsively deleted my Google activity and became extremely paranoid that I was a bad person and a criminal, even though I'd never ever had these types of thoughts before. Then felt bad afterwards because I was like omg what if i am bad because what if it seems like I'm trying to hide a crime. I just really hate myself rn. I know we shouldn't ask for reassurance, but I'm more just pondering this, does this make me a bad person? Is there anyone else who has experienced something similar? Does this mean I still have OCD? or am I truly just only worried about how other people see me? Even while typing this, I'm asking myself, what does this all mean.
I feel like a lot of my fears are actually just centered around what other people think of me because I'm scared of being abandoned and no one loving me anymore. I don't actually feel like my fears are about being a good person. And then when I have this thought it makes me feel even worse because many people here genuinely seem to be scared of being a bad person. I feel like an actual bad person who's more concerned with appearances than anything else :(. I keep having these thoughts like what kind of person am I when I'm alone and with my thoughts. And then I get scared to be alone.
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