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- 1y ago
New subtype for me?
I had the fleeting thought of what it would be like to be a woman, and now I'm overthinking about being possibly transgender.
I had the fleeting thought of what it would be like to be a woman, and now I'm overthinking about being possibly transgender.
Been there myself, way more than a fleeting thought at times. Epr techniques work for this as well
I haven't been able to talk to my therapist for months. She's been heavily booked. So I'm kinda on my own with this theme
@OCDwontownme This and soocd and other "taboo" themes seem to freak us out more than others. But, the same ERP tools work. Accept uncertainty. Just let it there, maybe I do, maybe I don't. I was obsessed I was gay, and am past that now by just allowing it for some time. That doesn't mean agreeing with it, just allow it. It'll pass. Trust the tools
@Someone99 How do you do that
@Confused Are you familiar with ERP, exposure, response, prevention at all?
@Someone99 I aspire to be like you. I struggled with POCD for a while but was able to get over that and with health ocd. However soocd is the one that has been stuck for years!
@TBdiz89 Thank you for the kind words. It's a daily walk for all of us. So many on here are hot hard with soocd because it seems to be tied to our hormones, desires, drive, etc. For me it was difficult but it did ease up as I remained consistent with the tools. Didn't feel right for a little while but I thought I have nothing to lose, so here goes ... And it helped. Trust the tools you used with the other themes. One may not always work, or ever work, so alternating helped me, and maybe you can even discover a new tool that may help you through this one?
@TBdiz89 Pocd is the scariest for me lol. Soocd lasts longer but yipe it's scary
@Someone99 *hit hard with soocd ...
@Someone99 No am not
Dealing with this as well, it definitely is freaking me out. Come after a thought during a soocd panic attack which lead me to think what if I turn trans. I have never thought this is my life or never felt different. I got ocd this year and started with harm/soocd/now I guess the new taboo theme tocd. It’s crazy how it ties in together but damn can’t believe my thoughts put me in such a hole. I haven’t started erp just yet, but open to ideas how to get myself back to knowing I’ll be ok and I can conquer this.
Ok so I’m a 17 year old female, and I’ve always thought I was straight. But I just really want to know how you would know the difference between so-ocd and actually questioning your sexuality. I have nothing against the LGBTQ community (in fact I am very much a token straight friend, lol) but I saw a video about comp-het recently and it sort of felt like what I was experiencing. I don’t want to be gay, I want to be with men, I want to like men, I’ve always liked men, but now I’m questioning whether or not that’s real? Because people can be gay but not want to be right? I’m single and I always have been. I think women are gorgeous, but when I try to imagine actually having any sort of romantic or sexual relationship with a woman it feels wrong, at least most of the time it does? Sometimes I’m less sure, and I’ve never been particularly boy crazy. I’ve liked maybe 2 or 3 people in my life, (not to say I’ve never found other guys attractive, but it doesn’t seem to be as often as most people) I have no particular reason to be afraid of being gay, very supportive family, safe area ect, but I don’t want to be, does that mean this is ocd, I don’t know what’s going on every time I say I’m straight I feel like I’m lying, but that might just be because I think about it so much. The idea of being with a woman doesn’t feel like something I would want, but is that just because I don’t want to want it? People online say things with so much sureness, if you feel like this it means this. Ect.
Lately, I have been able to manage my OCD thoughts kind of. They’re still there but I kind of push them away? I know that pushing them away doesn’t help but it’s been my only way to survive. I get scared often about things like clothes or my voice or how I present myself. I get scared that I want to dress differently or act differently and it scares me. I know for a fact I don’t want boobs or anything like that, but my mind constantly is like “What if?” and it kills me. It has ruined everything for me. Sometimes I can’t even look in the mirror because I get scared that I won’t like what I see. I’ve also been afraid because I find myself relating to many female characters, or I want to act like them. Like Pearl from Steven Universe. I want to be graceful and elegant like her, but I don’t want to be a girl you know? My mind constantly pushes these thoughts of what if and images. Because I am not like most guys. Which I know is okay. It just freaks me out. It makes me question every aspect of my being. I know who I am, but I know that the only way to move forward is to accept that maybe I don’t.. It’s just a lot.
Is there anything that those of you who do identify as trans experienced that made you realize you were trans, and it was not anything else. For those of you dealing with TOCD is there anything you feel like you experience that you think says you are trans? For those of you who are trans. I struggle with breast discomfort, such as feeling and being aware of them all day everyday. Feeling the bra, sports bra on my skin. When I look in the mirror I feel like I am not sure if my thoughts say I don’t like them or if it’s my negative thoughts speaking. It’s frustrating and infuriating, and I want to know whether these thoughts will ever go away or if this is inevitable regardless of OCD.
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