Help me please im scared!!!

I can't anymore! The anxiety is so bad my hands are trembling and I felt like throwing up. I feel like i admitted something. I felt like I agreed! Me and my fam member were gonna share a soda. I dont normally drink soda, so my fam member was excited and happy. I got a random thought that said that this thought is like when people withhold doing the deed with their partners and that she was acting like an excited bf and that i was basically acting like that with her but in terms of sharing soda. I felt anxiety in my gut but it felt confusing. I was about to say no like normal but then I voluntarily said "yknow what? I like it. Im going to think this in the future and ima miss the thoughts" idk why I said that but i think i meant it but something made me feel uneasy and like my stomach was still hurting from anxiety... but I rmemeber i was questioning the anxiety in my gut bc I thought that it was pleasure. I was confused about it and said that. But I felt like I said something wrong. And literally moments later I regretted having said that and started to spiral especially when ocd said I sexualized them and wanted to keep sexualizing her. I have been spiraling for 6 hours nonstop! And im trembling rn and I was crying. I had a panic attack. Is this still ocd?! Did I sexualize her???