@Mariabae Im guessing we’re the same age, 18? Im not a professional but knowing myself, i would love to hear someone who’s going through what im going just to feel seen and know that im not alone. Im struggling with rocd too, used to be severe but im more relaxed right now. One month ago, i started to socialize and met many other people. I realized i didn’t have many friends and didn’t trust anyone besides my lover and my bestfriend. I realized that this wasn’t who i was before. And so, i started going out a lot more and hanging out with my friends. Later, i realized one of them had a crush on me. I was flattered and did like the attention, they were attractive, well i was in love with my partner but feeling this, finding someone else attractive or liking the attention didn’t sit right with me. I began questioning if i even liked my girlfriend or not, socializing and finding myself again had me feeling like i was betraying her. But i wasn’t panicking about this. That’s when i started to think that i really was losing my feelings. Well, turns out, i wasn’t. I was just growing, finding myself yet again. What im trying to say is, sometimes you need to give yourself the space to grow. You need to accept the fact that you’re changing and so is your feelings. But it doesn’t always have to be in a negative way. Change can be positive too, after all, you’re learning to love, to be healthy, and to be comfortable with your feelings. And even if this change has a negative affect on your feelings, this doesn’t define who you are, or how you’re gonna live your life. Anything can happen in this life, good or bad. So don’t force yourself for anything. Once you accept who you are and your feelings, thats when you’ll feel relieved. Don’t try to reassure yourself, just learn to sit with it. ROCD is the bully in your brain, engaging with these thoughts and trying to oppose to them and always trying to reassure yourself will just feed this bully. Do not let your mind get the best of you. Please consider getting help from a professional, sometimes we might need an extra hand to understand what lays in the back of our mind to fix our problems 🫶
