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@Givenup But I once intentionally thought of this little girl in a sexual way when I saw her at the salon

@Idontknow I bet you confidently it was because you were trying to see your physical reactions to the thoughts. I do this as well... i think of my ocd thoughts to see my physical reactions and check my reactions to the thoughts. But you checking is a confirmation its still ocd

@Givenup I think it felt like an urge to think about it too

@Idontknow I promise you that this is all ocd's efforts to gaslight you and hurt you...

@Givenup I hope it is because I told my therapist and I feel like she thinks I’m a p now because ps actively think about it and it’s not like I’m thinking about it on a bus because when I try to think of something to enjoy I think of a man I’m just confused

@Idontknow - Sorry that you are struggling with this. Is the therapist that you are working with an OCD specialist?

@it's just a thought No

@Idontknow seek a new therapist that’s actually helpful! hope this helps

@Anonimus ME 🦋 That I need to find an erp certified therapist or do my coping skills

@Idontknow well, I haven't found anyone for training, but I have a therapist for erp..most of the time we have to do it alone, but you are not alone..we are here to win this together...

@Anonimus ME 🦋 I feel like I am alone because I know people with pocd have unwanted thoughts I intentionally thought of it once when I saw the little girl I don’t know if it’s because I wanted to see if I would get a bad or good feeling and it’s just ps be intentionally thinking it for inappropriate reasons to get turned on but when I think of something for me to get turned on I think of a man I don’t know how to explain it

@Idontknow you don't have to explain anything, I know everything! We all feel that way, more or less, remember! You are not alone, but not at all ❤️

@Anonimus ME 🦋 But I intentionally thought of it

@Idontknow so yes, to see if you will react, and then you react because your feelings get mixed up from panic, and then you doubt yourself...

@Anonimus ME 🦋 I still feel like it’s not Pocd I know people say I’m not alone but I feel alone Because ps think it

@Idontknow when i stay alone at home, the thought immediately comes to my head that I can touch myself, don't I imagine those thoughts?! I'm a bit scared of this "idea", especially since I've had these types of tests before... can anyone help if they've had a similar experience? what worries me is that it is my wish, i.e. that I can do it, and not ocd...I feel alone too...but because we think it's special to us...but you're not❤️

@Anonimus ME 🦋 Thank you for sharing your experience, I appreciate it 😞 I’m just so confused I think I need to read a book or write all my symptoms I talk to chat gpt also

@it's just a thought She’s trying to find me an erp certified therapist I once spoke to an ocd therapist and she commented “the thoughts are unwanted?” And I felt like garbage because sometimes it feels wanted so I just think to myself then I’m a p

@Idontknow - Hey glad to hear that you are working to get connected with an ERP certified therapist, that is so critical. As to your previous experience with an OCD therapist asking you if the "thoughts are unwanted", I can see how your OCD could latch on to that and cause you to question how much they really are unwanted. It's important to remember that OCD is never really just one theme. That can mean it's contamination one week and POCD the next week. But you can also have sub-themes that come up within a primary theme - "what if this isn't really OCD?" or "what if I really like/welcome the thoughts?" are two HUGELY common ones.

@it's just a thought But I intentionally think stuff

@it's just a thought Not all the time but that time at the salon and I feel alone because I feel like I’m actually a P not someone with Pocd