I want to die! 51 years

I believe in you

Therapy!!!!!

It’s ok to question why god allows us to live with thoughts that kill us because it’s questionable especially as long as you’ve been going through this i don’t want u to feel bad abt thinking that because it’s something that needs to be thought abt you’ve made this far along dont stop now everyone on this app is on ur side whether they be religious or not

Ur not a blasphemer, you just are struggling super hard. Personally im proud of you, but dont let your mind overtake your family. Always remember to live outside your mind. If you conquer your anxiety, youll be able to conquer all else easier

I am so sorry that you feel this way right now. I can definitely relate. I am also a father of three children and I’ve had days where I’ve had enough. But I fight OCD for them and my family too. But with the practice of ERP, my life has changed tremendously. I used to be trapped by doing my rituals/compulsions. I have severe OCD and multiple themes. I’ve had it for 10 years now diagnosed five years ago. If you would’ve told me, I would be on an OCD app talking about OCD I would’ve never believed it. But I have become stronger. Learning to deal with the intrusive thoughts and discomfort of not doing my rituals and felling the uncertainty, and just sitting with it. ( I know it hard) The more you do that the stronger you will become. OCD is just a big bully that wants to keep you trapped. But remember, we have the key to get out it just doesn’t know it. I am also a man of Faith and I used to see this as a curse and something that I wish God would take away from me. And I was always confused on why he didn’t. But now I see it as a blessing as crazy as it may seem. Maybe we were given this to help other people see the light and to get out of the darkness . Maybe we are here to give people hope they don’t have it right now. Keep fighting, keep going we’ve got this. “Hope” from NF is a great song that also helped me. He has OCD as well. Many other great songs.

I feel that way sometimes too, but then I do find small moments of joy. You can too. All feelings come in waves, whether that’s happiness, sadness, anger, fear, and guilt.

https://accounseling.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/05/Coping-Statements-for-Christians-With-OCD-and-Scrupulosity.pdf This is an amazing resource I found for ocd. The man who made it is a pastor and a psychologist for ocd. It’s really helped me. Don’t do the compulsions and the thoughts will fade. Praying for you. Don’t give up. I’ve been there-Unable to eat or sleep you feel so awful from the thoughts. God’s got you thought!!!

You are deserving of love and worthy of good things. Take it one day at a time and be gentle with yourself ❤️