I know it can feel weird and even unsettling sometimes, but this is exactly what you’re meant to do (this worry is just OCD trying to pull you back into the cycle by getting you to worry about not worrying lol). Even though the numbness you’re feeling, likely from stress or just everything piling up, can make you feel detached, it’s actually showing you something crucial: **these thoughts don’t have *real* power over you.** They’re just brain noise.
By learning to shrug off these intrusive thoughts, you’re proving that you can be fully present, whether you’re with your boyfriend or just dealing with everyday life, despite the constant background noise. You’ve already taken away their power, and while it might feel strange at first, it shows that you’re in control. The more you practice letting them pass, the less they’ll even feel real.
It’s a positive sign that even in moments of numbness, you’re discovering that these thoughts are nothing more than noise. They’re not a part of who you are, they never were.
Think of it this way: our brain is like a radio. The music is the normal thoughts we have, like our plans, desires, and things we care about. But then there’s the static, the intrusive thoughts that don’t make sense and disrupt everything. Most people don’t notice the static because their brains ignore it, but for us, we get caught up in it, thinking it’s important when it’s just noise. When we’re exhausted and can’t care about the static anymore, it feels wrong because we’ve been so used to paying attention to it. The trick is remembering that the static doesn’t matter, it’s just noise, and the more we stop giving it attention, the quieter it becomes.
Keep this up and you’ll continue to see that you can just let the thoughts be, without giving them any more meaning. You’ve got this 💛
