Really bad night.

I was doing very well with all my thoughts but then they started to get really bad this week. I am very sure I am straight and only want to be with a man but I have such good relationships with my girl friends and my mind plays tricks on me and likes to make me think it’s more than just a friendship. And this voice in my head tells me it’s not disgusting when in reality I would never do anything physical with them at all.But they get so intense I start to believe it. I just am not sure how to get out of this cycle. Every time I get better I think about getting in a relationship with a man and i freak out (what if i don’t like it? does that mean ill have to be gay) and all these thoughts blow up in my face and so can’t take it anymore. My bestie is coming to visit me and the thoughts get so intense when she is around and i really want to be in a good head space to spend time with her because i know deep down she’s my best friend and nothing more. Any suggestion to help?

Shermdog

Date posted: 24w

Take a deep breath and remember that you are in charge of your actions and feelings. Not your ocd. Our Brains generate tons of random thoughts. It’s understandable that it’s hard to see what true or false. In the end it’s ok to let your thoughts flow through your brain and leave. Don’t focus on your thoughts. Focus on all the physical things around you (touch, sight, smell, taste, sound) and allow yourself to relax. After you relax, just trust yourself and act

Ms.shelovesf...

Date posted: 24w

This exact thing happened to me yesterday but it's so-ocd acting up fr

rugirl48!

Date posted: 24w

@Ms.shelovesfrogs so stressed though because everyone always said “if it were true you’d know” but like how do i know if it’s just the ocd or if the thoughts are true because they keep coming back

Lizethh

Date posted: 24w

@rugirl48! I know it's hard but trying to figure this out just fuels the anxiety which will make it harder for you to move past this, the only thing to do is accept uncertainty, maybe you will never know forsure and that's fine, because these thoughts do not define you, they don't mean anything, and they can't harm you, let the thought come in and linger in your mind, but don't engage with them, don't react to them, don't check to see if this means anything about you, just take a deep breath notice these thoughts and move on to doing something in your present moment <3

Masc4lesb

Date posted: 18w

LESBIAN DEALING WITH SO OCD

I am a 18 year old masc lesbian with a loving girlfriend for 1 year, and I have been lesbian for almost my whole life and I have never been attracted to men in any way. flash to my past, My ex girlfriend who used to identify as a lesbian had cheated on me with a man. Recently I saw this tiktok of this masc lesbian turn straight and my friends and girlfriend made jokes I am going to turn straight for my male best friend. My male best friend came over and he’s a great guy but I do not want him in any way. when him and i were hanging out my mind threw in a thought it was “What if i like him”, i came back home and i had the worst panic attack and i felt so sick, i cried and i cried. ever since that day I have been struggling with intrusive thoughts, i don’t want a man in any way, and i feel comfortable as a lesbian but these thoughts won’t stop and they become worse when i see people say being lesbian is a phase or that i haven’t met the right guy or i’ll change in the future. i just want these thoughts to stop, i don’t want to stop being a lesbian ever, i love women so much and i just want all of this to be over with. i do not want a man in any way and im tired of my thoughts doubting myself and i hate the “what ifs”, I just want to be my old self, I want to be happy with my girlfriend.

Meg4n

Date posted: 18w

so-ocd seems to be flaring up again

I haven’t posted on here in a few days because I was feeling better but the past two days I’ve climbed my way back down the rabbit hole it seems. There’s this guy that I’m interested in and he seems to be interested in me. He keeps calling me pretty and how he’d like to meet me (he’s friends with my friends but I haven’t met him properly yet lmao) But I keep getting thoughts like “you’re not interested, you like women” and so on. I was feeling giddy about the whole thing up until two days ago where everything just seemed to shut off like my attraction, excitement and so on. I can’t believe I’m going through this again and I’m really trying to accept the thoughts but it’s so debilitating as I really want a bf but my brain keeps passing through thoughts that I do not want at all. Does anyone relate? Or have any coping strategies to help?

Sexual Orientation OCD

Masc4lesb

Date posted: 17w

LESBIAN WITH SO-OCD

hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Share your thoughts so the Community can respond

Really bad night.

Related posts

Be a part of the largest OCD Community

Be a part of the largest OCD Community