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So for a while i have been suffering of HOCD combined with a little of ROCD and had massive episodes of anxiety and panic attacks, because of that I lost my attraction and my libido while also being in a relationship and that stresses me bad. Also since the start of the severe anxiety I started to lose it gradually over time and at the moment I do not feel any anxiety anymore while having these thoughts which makes me think that I want this to happen because they don’t disgust me anymore. Any advices on how to hold on and get over my OCD? Also is the disappearing of disgust a sign of recovery or denial?

Username: FloralEnvoyFloralEnvoy

Date posted: 4d ago

Typically when we have a thought enough times our reactions to it get blunted. Good or bad. I think monitoring your reactions is a compulsion, and you're doing it with the hope that the disgust feeling will show up as reassurance. That's only gonna feed the OCD cycle.

Username: edimichaeledimichael

Date posted: 4d ago

@FloralEnvoy thank you so much

Username: OoOcCdD66OoOcCdD66

Date posted: 4d ago

It can be very hard to feel those sorts of things when you're in the thick of an OCD spike, regardless of theme. But especially when they center around things like relationships and orientation. Especially when you're monitoring it like the other user has suggested. You have to just let those feelings arise naturally. And you do so by accepting that right now they are gonna be on the backburner, but very likely will come back if you just let it be.

Username: ejpwolfpackejpwolfpack

Date posted: 4d ago

Anxiety just naturally dwindles over time. I’ve become to numb to all of it and don’t get anxiety. My SOOCD morphed into giving me feelings that I actually enjoy or want things like false attraction. The best you can do is just try and recognize that this is in the realm of ocd and have some blind faith that like all episodes eventually it will loss some power. Then you can be more prepared for when it happens again

Username: missbluesky

Date posted: 25w ago

SOOCD Comes and Goes

Every few months (3-4) I have a flare up of my sexual orientation OCD, but during the periods in between those flare ups I still get the thoughts every day I just don’t have horrible anxiety and I’m able to brush them off better. Is this still OCD? When it first happened it was 24/7 for around three or four months, then got a bit better, but still was there in the background. This has been the case for the last ten years— it has never fully gone away, it’s just been in the back of my head. I’ve never forgotten that I’m afraid of being a lesbian, but there are periods where I’m so anxious I consider suicide. I’m too afraid to do therapy because I think I will come out of it as a lesbian. Please, someone engage.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 20w ago

POCD

I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts about pedophilia, I was highly addicted to porn for 2 years or more, I even masturbated a couple times to someone younger but when I did that my ocd didn’t trigger or nothing till months after thinking what if I am a pedophile, after that is when I decided to quit porn indefinitely I realized I was going too far,I always thought I was a decent person, I have never hurt anyone, I always had this idea that I could become someone people can look up to or just become someone everyone respected, I’ve always loved sports, my family and video games, but lately I haven’t been able to enjoy any of that it’s like my ocd is making me think I’ve always been like this and all my actual beliefs weren’t real that I’ve always been this horrible person, at first I would get panic attacks and disgust but now I feel kinda numb and I don’t want to feel like that cause it’s making me think that maybe I am one and my mind is getting used to it, I even feel uncomfortable talking about kids or just being around them and I have never been like that . I am a heavy nicotine and weed smoker (I’ve tried to stop since it seems to make them worse). Now it feels like I am a completely different person, I also have a girlfriend who before this i would love with everything in me, and would be afraid to lose her every time we would argue, I would even think about a child with her in the future, but now I don’t even feel love or any attraction or any of the previous feelings I would feel towards my future and I just feel it makes it even worse cause if I’m not attracted to her and all my previous beliefs feel like lies then what can I believe in? Any advice or tips? I’ll be starting therapy this week so I pray there’s light at the end of the tunnel.

Username: helpmeimsosc...

Date posted: 19w ago

Attraction to guys still missing even after ocd

Even after ocd has calmed down. Scared that when my ocd goes away, I’ll still have “attraction” and groinals to girls. I don’t want to be lesbian. It’s like I don’t want my ocd to go away now? Anxiety and intrusive thoughts have gone down but my false attraction still feels real? And now it feels like I’ve always had this. And my real attraction is still missing? Has this happened to anyone ?

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