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Narcissistic mom
Hi How to deal with a fucked up narcissistic mom that caused me to have ocd ?????? I have so much anger towards her and idk how to let it out.
Hi How to deal with a fucked up narcissistic mom that caused me to have ocd ?????? I have so much anger towards her and idk how to let it out.
First, what happened? Why you mad at her? Maybe she is not narcissistic, maybe you just see it this way. I am not saying you are wrong or right, but try to cool down before jumping to conclusions.
@hanysm@gmail.com I've been mistreated my whole life bro, my mom HATES ME she even admitted it several times, one time she said that my little sisters shoes are more valuable than me infront of my siblings ššš she thrives off provoking me what are u talking about bro, today i told her that i got an A and all she said was "okay!" istg ive never done something horrible even tho sometimes she gaslights me into thinking that i'm a bad person and I deserved all of that, but ik myself.
@noneed1 First congratulations on the A. That's an achievement and you should be proud of yourself. š Second, reflect on your relationship with your mother by considering specific behaviors and patterns that make you feel mistreated. Are there recurring themes? It can also be helpful to talk to a trusted adult or counselor about your experiences to gain an outside perspective. When it comes to communication, using "I" statements can be effective. This allows you to express your feelings without blaming, such as saying, "I feel hurt when..." This approach can reduce defensiveness. Choosing the right time to discuss sensitive topics is essential; try to have these conversations when both of you are calm and not in the heat of an argument. Listening actively is also crucialāshow that you are willing to understand her perspective, which can encourage more open communication. In terms of conflict resolution, focus on solutions rather than dwelling on past issues. Work together to find practical ways to move forward. Itās also important to accept that some disagreements may not be resolved, and thatās okay. Respecting each other's differences can help maintain peace. Lastly, prioritize self-care by engaging in activities that help you relax and recharge, such as hobbies or spending time with friends. Building a support network is vital; connect with friends, family members, or counselors who can offer guidance and emotional support. By approaching the situation thoughtfully and seeking constructive ways to communicate, you can improve your relationship with your mother while also taking care of your own emotional needs.
@hanysm@gmail.com Beautifully said, Thank u SO MUCH, i really appreciate the time and effort you put into this, i can see that helping me in the future, thank u againā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Talk to a therapist or someone you trust.
Why do you have to deal with her? You have ocd. Thatās not going to change. Maybe she caused it maybe not. But itās not going anywhere. You can recover though. As far as your mom, if sheās truly a narcissist then your anger does not matter to her. Your feelings do not matter to her. So again why do you need to deal with her? Set boundaries, limit the access she has to you and work on your self. As far as the anger , itās only hurting you . Again she wonāt care. You accept it , process it and move on. It sucks I get it. My wife has a narcissistic father. Hits all the requirements in the DSM or what ever for the diagnosis, just missing a professional diagnosis š. Once my wife realized he was not going to change and her hurt and anger only affected her⦠she set boundaries and only allows the access she chooses to allow to her father. Seems to be working for her. Good luck !
@Iām Batman She is, I'm trying, thank youšš»
@noneed1 Look up Tim fletcher on YouTube. He has a lot of good videos on recovering from narcissistic abuse and complex trauma. At least itās a place to start. Finding a therapist you click with helps as well. Good luck !
I also think my mother caused my sister and me to suffer from mental health issues. We did ask her to go to family therapy with us, once in our early 20, then again in our late 30s, she refused. Apparently, she had been an awesome mother and we are just ungrateful brats. Needless to say, both my sister and me have cut contact with her and the first Christmas I didn't force myself to visit her, had been the best Christmas in my life, even though I spent it alone.
I had like a really bad argument with my mom basically about her complaining about my āattitudeā and āconstant arroganceā like okay firstly š yes i do have an attitude and am irritable but im not THAT bad šš she was saying that im a āpestā and that āits not enjoyable to live with someone who makes other people miserableā like š š§āāļø oh āŗļø and then i tell her that i know im struggling and that im going to therapy to try to get better and trying to possibly get a diagnosis and she says āyour generation just wants something to deal with. You want something to be wrong with you. āTrying to get betterā isnāt good enough⦠would you be able to stand someone like yourself? Youāre just choosing this antisocial, narcissistic behaviour and harass everyone⦠You need to pull yourself together. No matter how much effort we put into you, you will never be happy. You want some medicine? Some diagnosis? Because that will solve everything?ā ššš and the way she said āsome medicationā- she sounded so disgusted and appalled and now i feel ashamed⦠i mean im not officially diagnosed with ocd and it is never my intention to self diagnose- but im sorry its VERY obvious when you have ocd and know of ocd- its so distinct. Everything- the compulsions, reassurance, intrusive thoughts, themes, patterns, perfectionism- but she has me overthinking- what if i dont have ocd š and ive just been lying to myself and everyone maybe its not ocd and im just sick in the head or trying to self sabotage- and especially when my supposed ocd is calm or not as loud i get so anxious āwhat if i dont have ocdā¦ā
I feel super sad and depressed i'm tired of feeling so scared it's really changing me. My mom is a pretty difficult person she's a borderline narcissist. Over the years our relationship has changed a lot and recently i've been pretty hard on her because i feel so angry that she's not able to support me mentally in the ways that i need. I see now that she's mentally ill herself and i should be nicer and more understanding. she doesn't know better and she's trying her best. she was just a girl once and i feel bad that i said she lacks a motherly instinct. i love her a lot and i love seeing her laugh and be herself. she's super beautiful and unique and she deserved so much more out of life. I think my ocd makes me super angry towards the people in my life because i know i deserve the love i give. I would be so willing to have a really deep loving conversation with the people close to me yet i get such surface level support.
Just feel like getting it off my chest since I was little I always felt like my mom was my enemy like she was always competing with me and was always boy thirsty she never really focused on me although it was always me and her because I would never rly see my dad since they werenāt together I feel as if she was never really their it was alway other people taking care of me not her and I hold a lot of resentment towards her because I feel like she tryās to play this role of innocent mom whos kid hates her for no reason but that could be farther frm the truth she would always just focus on her bfs and whenever she would fight with them she would take it out on me or if she would see them making a bond with me she would also get mad the other day too I had memories of when I was 8-9 she would take me to her friends house who had two boys 10-11 and I remember we would always play ruff but their would be times where I remember they would bend me over and hump me and I never said anything I also remembered this one time she took me with this random lady and I only went that one time but I recall a boy who looked to be 13 like a teenager he told me to go under the bed and at the time I was very little like probably no more then 7 and I rember he started touching me and kissing me I never got rapid or anything tho but very touchy and I was telling my bf about it and I started crying because I hadnāt thought abt those things since years ago and now that I remembered I canāt forget and no one knew because I never told anyone but my bf just comforted me and hugged me but it makes me really sad and I know my mom wouldnāt care if I told her she also has kicked me out about 8 times already and we even had a cps case which she still blames me for although it was her fault and she also always does stuff just to upset me on purpose she also made fun of me bien suicidal and would joke about it with anyone she could get the chance too theirs a lot more that I could talk about for hours but this is already very long point is I hold so much anger and resentment towards her and if Iām being completely transparent I truly can say I hate her I feel so bad about it because in the end she is my mom but I canāt forgive her for the stuff sheās done to me and the stuff Iāve had to go through because of her I wish I could fix our relationship but at the same time I feel hopeless and like theirs no fixing it
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