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Narcissistic mom
Hi How to deal with a fucked up narcissistic mom that caused me to have ocd ?????? I have so much anger towards her and idk how to let it out.
Hi How to deal with a fucked up narcissistic mom that caused me to have ocd ?????? I have so much anger towards her and idk how to let it out.
First, what happened? Why you mad at her? Maybe she is not narcissistic, maybe you just see it this way. I am not saying you are wrong or right, but try to cool down before jumping to conclusions.
@hanysm@gmail.com I've been mistreated my whole life bro, my mom HATES ME she even admitted it several times, one time she said that my little sisters shoes are more valuable than me infront of my siblings ššš she thrives off provoking me what are u talking about bro, today i told her that i got an A and all she said was "okay!" istg ive never done something horrible even tho sometimes she gaslights me into thinking that i'm a bad person and I deserved all of that, but ik myself.
@noneed1 First congratulations on the A. That's an achievement and you should be proud of yourself. š Second, reflect on your relationship with your mother by considering specific behaviors and patterns that make you feel mistreated. Are there recurring themes? It can also be helpful to talk to a trusted adult or counselor about your experiences to gain an outside perspective. When it comes to communication, using "I" statements can be effective. This allows you to express your feelings without blaming, such as saying, "I feel hurt when..." This approach can reduce defensiveness. Choosing the right time to discuss sensitive topics is essential; try to have these conversations when both of you are calm and not in the heat of an argument. Listening actively is also crucialāshow that you are willing to understand her perspective, which can encourage more open communication. In terms of conflict resolution, focus on solutions rather than dwelling on past issues. Work together to find practical ways to move forward. Itās also important to accept that some disagreements may not be resolved, and thatās okay. Respecting each other's differences can help maintain peace. Lastly, prioritize self-care by engaging in activities that help you relax and recharge, such as hobbies or spending time with friends. Building a support network is vital; connect with friends, family members, or counselors who can offer guidance and emotional support. By approaching the situation thoughtfully and seeking constructive ways to communicate, you can improve your relationship with your mother while also taking care of your own emotional needs.
@hanysm@gmail.com Beautifully said, Thank u SO MUCH, i really appreciate the time and effort you put into this, i can see that helping me in the future, thank u againā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
Talk to a therapist or someone you trust.
Why do you have to deal with her? You have ocd. Thatās not going to change. Maybe she caused it maybe not. But itās not going anywhere. You can recover though. As far as your mom, if sheās truly a narcissist then your anger does not matter to her. Your feelings do not matter to her. So again why do you need to deal with her? Set boundaries, limit the access she has to you and work on your self. As far as the anger , itās only hurting you . Again she wonāt care. You accept it , process it and move on. It sucks I get it. My wife has a narcissistic father. Hits all the requirements in the DSM or what ever for the diagnosis, just missing a professional diagnosis š. Once my wife realized he was not going to change and her hurt and anger only affected herā¦ she set boundaries and only allows the access she chooses to allow to her father. Seems to be working for her. Good luck !
@Iām Batman She is, I'm trying, thank youšš»
@noneed1 Look up Tim fletcher on YouTube. He has a lot of good videos on recovering from narcissistic abuse and complex trauma. At least itās a place to start. Finding a therapist you click with helps as well. Good luck !
I also think my mother caused my sister and me to suffer from mental health issues. We did ask her to go to family therapy with us, once in our early 20, then again in our late 30s, she refused. Apparently, she had been an awesome mother and we are just ungrateful brats. Needless to say, both my sister and me have cut contact with her and the first Christmas I didn't force myself to visit her, had been the best Christmas in my life, even though I spent it alone.
Having a really rough night tonight. Currently I'm having a lot of contamination obsessions and compulsions with using the bathroom and when I use it I usually end up spending at least an hour and a half including all the cleaning rituals and showering afterwards and I just started seeing a new therapist to help with this. Tonight it unfortunately hit me in the middle of the night at like starting at 1 am and finishing close to 3 am. This ended up making both my mom and dad really angry with me and this is not a new situation. For context, my dad doesn't believe in mental illnesses at all and my mother is better and much more understanding, but still doesn't believe it's real to an extent. With my mom being more supportive than my dad, it leads to arguments between them a lot especially ever since they brought me home (I recently graduated college and my OCD got to the point where I was unable to have a job or function normally in taking care of myself by living alone). My mom tends to lash out at me when she gets stressed about these arguments with my dad over me because she can't talk back to him and that in turn usually causes me to spiral and get worse and so the cycle continues. This recent time my dad started yelling at me from downstairs because I was flushing the toilet too much for his liking and my mom said some hurtful things to me. I understand that it's not easy living with me especially right now and I can see why they're upset but I really am trying to get better but I can't just get better overnight and automatically be able to control all my compulsions, especially with the severity they're at right now. I'm not really sure how to navigate my family situation like this with a lack of a support network or someone in my family who believes that what I'm going through with OCD is real and it's not just me choosing to do these things. Has anyone else experienced a similar home situation and have any tips on getting through it?
I am so angry with ocd. I hate that ocd even exists. I wouldnāt necessarily say I wanted to be a mom when I was younger. I grew up without my mom around. But now my sisters are both moms and I see them and I feel like Iām missing out. But having pocd and hocd has definitely made me feel like itās completely out of the question. I even made sure my fiancĆ© knew that I didnāt want children/ feel like I canāt have them for fear of hurting them or passing on mental health issues. I was abused growing up and one of my old therapists told me that āpeople who are abused can become abusersā. That is something that I am not willing to risk. And even though I feel set on that choice, my brain still tells me that Iām missing out. So Iām constantly questioning if I truly feel like I donāt want them or if ocd is convincing me I donāt. Ugh. Itās just so frustrating.
Iām turning 30 in a few months and all I can think about how my Parents never took the initiative to actually help me when it came to my mental illness. Now my OCD is probably the worst itās ever been and I feel like I canāt do anything. Like Iām trapped in a tunnel and thereās no way out. Iāve gone from job to job, never fully finished my degree due to severe OCD/depression never making enough money for professional help and being gaslighted all these years about my illness. I resent my family and myself for not trying hard enough to get better. If anyone can relate feel free to share. Anyways I pray this year will be the year I find my out.
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