Terrified I did something bad

It’s just a coincidence they happen alot in ocd but we hold on to them too much and think they have meaning. Not everything has an explanation and that’s okay. And not every coincidence means we automatically did something bad. Hope that helps a bit as I’ve been here.

I know how this feels as someone with pocd, it’s horrible and frightening. I haven’t experienced sleepwalking but something similar. OCD makes it almost seem like it’s inevitable or easy to act on intrusive thoughts, but that’s simply not the case. Even in our subconscious, we still have morals. We cannot violate our morals because of intrusive thoughts. The best thing you can do for yourself is to trust yourself even if it feels scary.

Thank you guys, you comments helped me calm down a bit from the breakdown I was having😭🙏 I was able to come out of the terrified state i was in, but still my whole day was ruined bc of this, I couldn't even enjoy Halloween and all my plans for today were ruined as well. I tried not to ruminate on the situation but still had another breakdown in the afternoom, I started spiriling once again thinking all sorts of scenarios and what could've happened, trying to put the pieces together and kept asking my whole family over and over about what they did last night and if they noticed something unusual and had to replay the whole scene on my mimd again and again about what happened the night before and at one point I had like some type of realisation that the thing I feared did not happen, it was just like a flash of light or something bright hat struck me and made me have mental clarity for a few seconds, like being able to think like a normal person and realize how ridiculous was thinking that something like that happened and sicne I absolutely dont remember ever goi g to the kitchen it was impossible, and my dad also said something earlier that made calm down a bit, bc my dad is suffreing from memory issues maybe early dementia unfortunately and he said he does not remember doing it but maybe he did and comoeltely forgot bc he was very tired last night and his memory is not doing well and he was in the kitchen while we were all asleep but does not remember what ahppened after, like 1 or 2 hours later that i when I woke up to the restroom. Still, my head fcking hurts form thinking nonstop during the day, I did nothing at all but locked up in my room and when the rumination started in thelater afernoon I had a horrible existential crisis and felt insane bc I couldn't tell what was real and what not, and the fact that I probably would never find ot what actually happened was destroying me, I evwn thought of k**ngmslf honestly. I just want to get over this and forget about it, but it was scary because today I actually felt su*c*da* and that I should be hospitalized from how bad it got. This mental agony and fear I do not wish it on anybody EVER, idk what I did to deserve this...