Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
Have felt this so much in the past!!!
I’m glad I’m not the only one!
I have this too 😔
@Speckles I just have such a hard time because the more I ruminate about what’s real I find myself further from what I believe the truth is - if that makes sense?
@KelSul73 I think I understand what you mean. I just feel like a horrible person bc of my thoughts and that I offended God.
I totally get that- and not to invalidate your experience AT ALL- but please understand that SO many Christians with ocd have felt the EXACT SAME WAY! Including me! I know that makes me feel less alienated! I also remind myself of how many different perspectives there are in following God and what it seems that you’re feeling/thinking is more rules based religion type of Christianity- where as, after what I’ve been through with ocd, I want to pursue the emphasis of God in His Grace. I want to pursue the God I know that loves me as I am, exactly as I am- He knows every single thing about you and knows what your heart needs to heal
Meanwhile, even with all of that- God is still pursuing YOU! He loves you THAT much- I need to re-parent myself in Christianity as well where I need to remind myself that my parents did the best with what they had at the time. I want to sit in with the most important things God tells us- not to make sure we follow these rules perfectly, but to know that Jesus lived a perfect life as the ultimate example because His Father knew we couldn’t. I also know that we after many biblical scholars have studied the Bible in various ways, a lot of people think that ocd (without this name at the time obviously) was very prevalent in many people in the Bible! This has a been a great suffering for CENTURIES and know that Jesus loved those people perfectly too
Is this ocd? I Have a thought or think something f harmful that I’ve gotten intrusive thoughts about - and get a feeling like I want/like it or it would give me relief??? Please tell me that will eventually go away and I’ll get my real feelings back??? Or have I just turned into those things? Sometimes things that make me upset it even feels like I’ll do them just so I can be upset about them.
I have panic disorder, and OCD and anxiety. Does anyone else ever feel just off the edge all the time? Like I always feel like something’s off or something’s gonna happen. I don’t know how to explain the feeling. But I always feel off and when I feel off I panic
When OCD latches onto your morals, it can make you question whether you're a good person, even over small things. Have you ever felt overwhelming guilt over something others would brush off?
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