Religious OCD

Hey all. I need help. I am sitting on my bathroom floor freaking out and convinced that all my work towards getting better has gone out the window. I am so scared of the “bad guy” getting me all the time. I constantly feel like I have to prove to God that I don’t mean these awful feelings and thoughts that I have about the bad guy. I’ve had trouble sleeping tonight, going in and out of consciousness, all while dealing with bad thoughts going in and out of my head. Finally I woke up and am flooded with “you have so many thoughts and feeling that you let slide while you were trying to sleep. You had thoughts that you accepted the bad guy and you didn’t dispute them before you tried to move on. You have so much to answer for.” So now I’m sitting here in my bathroom floor hysterically crying and begging God to believe me when I say I don’t any of these thoughts or feelings… please someone help

B-Cole

Date posted: 11d ago

This sounds really tough - I hope you are doing okay. It sounds like you are taking your thoughts very seriously and that is quite painful. Remember your thoughts are just thoughts, you have thoughts but you are not your thoughts - you are more than your thoughts. And it sounds like there is lots of uncertainty, too. Uncertainty can feel horrible, I struggle a lot with uncertainty. But remember the aim isn’t to eliminate uncertainly because that is impossible, instead it’s to make peace with having uncertainty in your life. Uncertainty can be a beautiful thing too - within uncertainty there is lots of hope, faith and potential. If you had certainty all the time, where would there be room for fun, random, coincidental things to happen? My final thought is, what would happen if you let God into the driving seat. Instead of you working so hard to understand things and control your thinking, you handed that over to your God? Gods will!

httpet

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11d ago

@B-Cole Beautifully said!

Anonymous

Date posted: 10d ago

@B-Cole This really helped me yesterday. My thoughts are now feeling like “let’s just think this really bad thought just to see what happens too.” And it feels like I AM doing that and not my OCD and I don’t know what to do about that either…

B-Cole

Date posted: 10d ago

@Anonymous I understand. I sometimes think about my OCD as if it’s a separate person, but it’s not a separate person but a mental health condition. That doesn’t make you a bad person. Instead you are having a negative reaction to intrusive thoughts and letting intrusive thoughts shake your values and morality. Allowing the thoughts to be there, and exposing yourself to the thoughts without doing compulsions I have found to be helpful.

Anonymous

Date posted: 11d ago

I went to a really similar situation and every time I ask god for forgiveness the thoughts got worst, and is just because in the moment you ask for forgiveness you create more fear and that creates more thoughts, in the moment I stop asking for forgiveness the thoughts slowly disappear, you don’t have to ask for forgiveness for something that it’s happening to you, you are not creating that and you don’t wanted, show to yourself and to god how you really are and that’s all it matters 🙏🏻🙏🏻

Themicguy10

Date posted: 11d ago

God knows you don’t mean it he knows you can’t help it i know i been there. and i have done the same that you it gets easier the more let those thoughts go

Anonymous

Date posted: 11d ago

Hey, I want to share a verse that may be helpful because God knows that we are humans and have uncontrollable thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9, acknowledges that God knows our thoughts are not always representative of real life but he still loves you

julianofnorwich

Date posted: 10d ago

Praying for you 🙏

King silly

Date posted: 14w ago

Not seeking reassurance, just prayers

Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before

Dan250709

Date posted: 9w ago

Religion related thoughts

I don't really know if it's OCD, but lately I've been thinking a lot and in a very obsessive way that every single one of my actions, words or even thoughts will affect on how God will make decisions about my life. For example, if I lie to someone or yell at them out of anger, God will make happen something bad to me as a "punishment". I know it might seem silly, but it really really freaks me out sometimes... Does anyone feel the same? And if so, do you do something in particular to feel better? Thanks for your understanding❤️

Krome_da

Date posted: 5w ago

Pretty Tough Morning

So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?

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