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Thank you for sharing. I so needed to hear that. ♥

@Speckles Remember, none of us are perfect. It’s not like only the perfect ones or the ones closer to being perfect get to heaven and the imperfect ones go to hell. It’s not based on our works. It’s based on Jesus being our savior💖

@Jilli Even if I have taboo thoughts. I hope I'll be forgiven for those. I hate these images I have. I feel so alone in this disease.

@Speckles If you accept Jesus as your savior, you are already forgiven. Please know you’re not alone. OCD wants you to feel alone and lies to you when it makes you feel you’re alone. Don’t give it that satisfaction. I wouldn’t be here understanding what you’re saying if you were alone. It also sounds like you don’t want these thoughts you have. You cannot control them. If I were to tell you to go walk around the block without thinking of a fox, a fox would simply pop up into your thoughts and it would be out of your control. These thoughts are out of your control as well. So again, going to heaven is not based on the works you do. It’s based on Jesus being your savior. If He is your savior, you are forgiven. For your thoughts, for everything. Praying for you💖

@Speckles It’s a real struggle. I know. But we just cannot give OCD the satisfaction.

@Jilli Thank you so much! I appreciate you praying for me. I'm having a really hard time with this OCD. I have to separate the OCD and myself. It's making me feel like an evil person. Your words are helping me get thru this tho, so I'm very thankful

@Speckles I’m thankful you’ve shared this so I can share my thoughts and beliefs with you! My OCD makes me feel like an evil person as well. But I tell myself the same. I have to separate the OCD and myself. If I didn’t have OCD, I wouldn’t have these thoughts. If I did have these thoughts, I wouldn’t give them attention and take them way out of proportion and over analyze them like I do now. Truth is, these thoughts don’t make me an evil person. They’re just a reminder of how evil my OCD is. I have to tell myself that’s the truth whether I believe it or not

@Speckles It’ll be okay💖

I get it! I feel the same way!

I feel like this is all my fault for having these images. Someone with a disability is different than me conjuring up terrible thoughts.

@Speckles Did you choose to have OCD? Is OCD something you choose to have? It sounds like a disability to me

@hanysm@gmail.com No...I didn't. I hate that I have it! I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I do wish I had another disease instead of this one. 😔

@Speckles Then it is a disability that is brought upon you. So why feel guilty? For example, I am diabetic, and I have to use the bathroom urinting very often. Should I feel guilty that I stop the car often when we travelling to use the restroom? You tell me???

@hanysm@gmail.com I feel guilty bc my brain had me think of something I shouldn't have. Diabetes is a physical thing, so that's different. I understand what you are saying tho. I would like to say that I didn't do this to myself.

@Speckles I think you imagining you control your brain. The average person gets about 60,000 thoughts per day. If you are in control of your brain to blame yourself for those thoughts, can you list few thousand of those thoughts for us? See, you are not in control of your brain, it is in control of your thoughts, and OCD is a disorder in such control organ. So, again why feel guilty for what you can't and don't control???

@hanysm@gmail.com Thank you... I don't want to feel guilty and a shamed. I'll take your approach to it. That helps me not feel so horrible.