Currently obsessing over me being the only “real” or conscious person in the world, and that everyone I love isn’t actually real. I know deep down that this is ocd, but I feel like by not ruminating I’m just ignoring the fear (which feels so real and scary). Has anyone experienced anything similar and how did you get out of this worry? Trying not to seek reassurance as it’s one of my compulsions, but I’m very distressed.
I’ve definitely experienced this more than once and what I can say has helped me with this specific theme is grounding myself to the moment i’m in. I know it can be hard but being okay with the uncertainty does help. When it comes to thinking everyone else isn’t real you have to remind yourself you and the people you love were placed in your life to support you through the journey of being alive in this world . Talk to your loved ones without asking for reassurance and make memories that you can hold on to with them. I would stay up crying thinking nothing was real and that I was the only one who could feel my existence. You don’t have to feel alone everyone experiences the same thoughts at a certain point. keep pushing through and work towards getting treatment !!
@Dianax Thank you so much for your comment. It’s still comforting to hear you say you’re real and that you’ve experienced something similar, because deep down I know I’m not alone in this. Just ocd making me feel that way. I’m actively looking to get into therapy and get back on the right track with practicing grounding and getting the right meds. So glad to know you’re on the other side of this particular struggle!!! Putting all good energy your way ❤️❤️❤️
@lunalady Im so glad I could provide comfort. Even though I’m being eaten up by another theme I’ve definitely overcome this one for the most part. Just remind yourself that OCD episodes come and go so this one will go just like the last one. You will get on the other side just keep being determined to conquer it and i’m sending you best of wishes!?
Hey!! I definitely think about this sometimes. But it's never affected me enough to become an obsession so I don't know how to deal with it. I can only imagine how scary it can be. I can come here and tell you that I'm real and that I know I'm real, but that won't be enough for your ocd. What really helps me with my obsessions is practicing uncertainty. And yes, it's really hard but keep trying. Practicing mindfulness is something I'm trying too and I know it helps a lot of people. ❤️🩹
@llalala Thank you for your kind words ❤️ I’m definitely trying to practice that uncertainty aspect, very hard but still trying. It’s a scary thought, but I’m trying to remind myself that ruminating will do nothing to change the outcome. Hoping you have a wonderful day/night!!
I told my cousin about this idea once, then he stated he was the only conscious person and I was not, and we had a laugh. I'm sorry this is affecting you so much. Many people come across this idea at some point in their life.
@BasicOCD I’ve come across this idea many times before, not really sure why this time it’s so distressing. Deep down I know it’s not really true. Just the thought it can’t be debunked is scary. Cousin sounds funny tho haha
Does anyone had or have the existential fear of our brain functions. I have so much hyperawareness in my thoughts, I focus all the time in my feelings and my intentions in order to check if I am strange or not and if I have control of my actions. I do psychotherapy 4 years and I thought I was fine. But this June I had a derealization episode(or ocd) , after that a depersonalization episode (or ocd) and after that I have obsessions about our existence and that every aspect in our lives has to do with our brain and for some reason these thoughts scary me. I know that at some point is ocd but I am very confused why this thoughts scary me so much. I observe others and I am curious how it's possible not to think about that and this make it worse . I am so anxious because obviously we are our brain ,I know that and brain has to do with everything,but I don't know why it make me anxious and if it's possible to live without these thoughts. I do many compulsion but my biggest is to figure out if I have compulsion in order to figure out if my thoughts is ocd or delusions. It's so real and these thoughts really bother me. Any other with same experience?
Hey all, this is my first post here, and I really think I'm going through the worst theme I've ever had. For weeks I've been having never ending reaccuring thoughts about everything having to do with being a person, life in general, other peoples lives and experiences, the meaning/purpose of life, and especially ruminating on death and the fact that everyone I know will die, including myself. It's gotten to the point of dissociation, and life feels simulated and fake. I can't think about anything else and the terror that comes along with it is awful (it's almost humorous to me that I'd rather have the POCD or ROCD themes I've had before, this seems so much worse) with death being the main fear in this theme I've given into the compulsions of researching death statistics (such as how many people die in my age group per year and how, car accident/heart disease/cancer statistics) over and over again and constantly repeating them in my head over and over. Driving got scary for a little while, but funny enough driving more (exposure) made that fear manageable. It's also gotten bad with the constant fear of knowing my loved ones will pass, and obsessing over how and when it'll happen. I'm also waking up everyday telling myself it'll be the day I die, and obsessing over the fact that most no one knows their last day and how genuinely terrifying that is. I'm constantly wondering what the point of anything is, if I'm just going to die, and almost prematurely mourning the death of loved ones and the loss of my own life. I am religious, and this offers some relief, but usually just ends in my OCD dipping into some Scrupulosity (which is just ugh why now this). Anyway, I was wondering if anyone has experienced anything like this, I'm feeling pretty alone and depressed and genuinely can't see my life going back to normal or any way out of it.
I have powerful existential ocd. My current most distressing spike ever has me almost convinced that me and my son were sucked into a virtual reality in my phone or another dimension like a mirror or tv, and that this reality is all fake and I've separated him from the real world. All because I had a guilt thought nearly two months ago. On top of that, my partner let me know she's dating another man two weeks ago and I was just laid off today. I need kind souls that understand and some empathy. Thank you.
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