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- Monii
- Date posted
- 32w ago
Only if
If I didn’t have ocd my life would be so beautiful is sad 😞
If I didn’t have ocd my life would be so beautiful is sad 😞
You will get through this and have a beautiful life don’t worry!
@Iloverowdy12 Hopefully is so guilty that I been wasting it but one thing is I didn’t pick ocd sadly
@Monii Nope none of is did it just the hand we were dealt with in this life I promise things will get better even if they don’t seem like that now
@Iloverowdy12 Hopefully the last 2 years I been stuck badly I need to get out of this ocd cycle
I always wonder if that one thought that started it all didn’t happen how alot of things would have been different it’s sad but we can do it
@hunnvenus Very sad and depressing why did we got picked to have this terrible disorder I meant people have worse things but still
Well I can tell you I've suffered with OCD since the age of 7.....I still remember my first intrusive thoughts like it was yesterday.....it turned my life on its head....not a day since has been OCD free, I was well past believing anything could really help .....I'm 58 and have been treated for the last year by an NOCD therapist, and my life is finally changing....for the first time I am starting to feel like I always should have, so I would say there is real hope for anyone with this illness.
@Garrett Maguire Me too since 7 I remember Exactly everything I remember getting thoughts that I was about to have a heart attack and going to my mom crying to help me and she used to said what’s wrong with you ? that’s no gonna happen but I still feel anxious nothing took that anxiety away since then I m 30 now and still suffer daily is a no ending bottle I always wish there’s was a magic fix for this is no fair we have to survive everyday and no live I m so happy for you that the therapist is helping you definitely needed it if you don’t mind asking what’s helping you therapy alone or with medication?
@Monii Therapy, I never found medication to really help me very much.
@Garrett Maguire That’s fantastic congratulations
This feels so real right now. Objectively I know I have so many great things in my life but I’m having the hardest time feeling gratitude or enjoyment for those things and it breaks my heart
@llm31 Yes is so hard being positive having gratitude while going through ocd is hard to enjoy life in general
I point I would make, is that I always felt that the problem, was the illness itself, that I had no control over it......but the truth is,... that it is our actions,....that keep the illness going, it only stays strong because we choose to continue with compulsions....which is within our control to stop.....not easy for sure, but we do have the power to take away OCDs control over our lives. It's that realisation and our willingness to act on it and nothing else I believe, that can make us better.
@Garrett Maguire Yes that is so true the compulsion are what ocd feed of i have so many compulsion that I didn’t even realize I had and is hard to cut them I m trying to cut them little by little because all at once cause bad anxiety and panic attack is so hard but it feel so much better when I don’t do a compulsion is all about staying strong how you said
My Ocd turns everything innocent and normal into something horrible. Sometimes when my daughter and I are watching tv she will want to play with and brush my hair. It feels so nice and relaxing or she will cuddle up and rub her feet on mine which is relaxing and makes me feel sleepy but ocd ruins it by telling me it’s inappropriate and that i’m enjoying something inappropriate. One day I saw a snapchat video my young grandson made of himself just out of the shower looking at himself shirtless in the mirror and I was thinking that he thinks he’s so cool and is probably going to flex like all boys do and laughed to myself but then the ocd kicked in and said that I was attracted to him and it made me so upset because I never have and don’t think of any child in that way. I don’t feel that way so how can ocd try to make me believe that I do?? How can ocd be more powerful than my own actual thoughts and feelings? This disorder is so debilitating and upsetting. I can’t live like this.
i'm going to lose my life one day to this illness i never asked for. it could've been beautiful.
What if I am what my OCD says? What if I am deep down a horrible monster and my ocd has been right all along and I’ve just been trying to fight it and deny that I am what it says?
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