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- 45w ago
What happens during an episode of OCD?
For me it’s quick flashes of images and racing thoughts. It’s really scary and I feel alone
For me it’s quick flashes of images and racing thoughts. It’s really scary and I feel alone
I also see detailed images with my ocd. For example I see me shooting myself with blood and brain chunks on the floor. The images make me feel great distress , I even have cried from some of them. I have images of hurting others too , I hate the images but I have slowly learned they are just fear and do not mean anything. The images still do scare me sometimes. Sorry you have the images with your OCD, It’s like you are in your own horror Movie for hours sucks.
@Brooke cookie My images look so weird. As if I’m seeing it with my eyes but I know I’m not. They are hazy but look real and they suck me out of reality for a moment
I don’t like when I get those. They happen so fast and leave you feeling horrible but I will say they get better. I seem to get them more when I am having stress and anxiety about something or a lot of in uncertainty on something too. I had one doc that described it to me as having a circus 🤡 in your head that sometimes just comes out with stuff we don’t like and we should just laugh when we get it.
@Schoolie93 The images are so weird and wacky. Makes me feel like something is wrong with my head. Feels like I’m seeing it with my eyes but I know it’s imaginary
@ObsessivePenguin Yeah, the images feel real its really creepy. I don’t know why but pure OCD feels real when it’s not , it’s Terrible.
You are not alone, unfortunately most of us on this app are fighting the same fight. For me, it’s intrusive thoughts that trigger anxiety and endless rumination.
@Anonymous Do you have the image flashes? They’re so fast and vivid :(
@ObsessivePenguin Occasionally! But you are not alone, we are all here for you
@Anonymous The image flash has made me feel mad
My OCD has never been this strong, it's so real, it feels like it will never go away, it's never been this strong for me and it's very scary.
I feel like one of the worst things about ocd are the disturbing images or the ‘little movies’ that replay in your head over and over again. I have the worst sexual images with one of my family members that actually so bad that I can’t even look in the mirror. And it’s even worse that I have a lovely boyfriend and I’m so disgusted of myself that I feel like I don’t deserve him and I feel like I can’t be with him because of these thoughts, even he is the most precious thing in my life. These sexual images are so horrible and what makes it even worse that in these pictures I always see myself as someone who enjoys it. I know how to deal with this anymore. My mind is trying to convince me that that I actually like these images and thoughts and this is the hardest part, that I’m doubting myself. These images pop up in my head so naturally that I always question myself if I actually don’t like it why it comes so naturally or how can my brain picture things like this if I don’t like it. It’s getting worse day by day. It’s in my head 24/7, can’t concentrate on anything else, I can’t eat because I’m constantly throwing up. And my mom has to sleep with me every night because I’m so disturbed by my own mind. My parents know that there’s something wrong with me, they think I’m depressed but sadly It’s not something I can talk openly about with them. I’m seeing a therapist next week but I’m genuinely scared to open up about these thoughts that I’m having.
I don’t know how to deal with the thoughts that come and barely gone. Usually, the brain often remembers and forgets things. People with OCD however struggle with trying to forget the intrusive thoughts because of the imbalance trying to convey what is real and if the thoughts in your head will come true. Just for the past few days, I was having fun and suddenly hit with a wave of obsessive thoughts and making me stuck with nowhere to go.
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