Please relate. The “i want to die” thought?

I have the “i want to die thougt” everyday!!! Is this normal with suicidal ocd?? Anyone relate?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 44w ago

I have suicidal ocd and I definitely relate. *I* don't want to die, I love living, but the bugs in my brain keep telling me that I want to die and it gets really hard to deal with. For me, it gets triggered when I'm being understimulated, as it makes me think about the "forever nothing" that is to come. It scares me so bad that my mind tells me that I should just kill myself so I don't have to be scared anymore, which is obviously not proactive or what I want. It's really scary and, at times, debilitating, but just know that these thoughts aren't *your* thoughts! They're just random thoughts that pop through, nothing more. It's hard, but it gets better, and we'll make it through 💪☺️!

Username: Brynnie BearBrynnie Bear

Date posted: 44w ago

I feel like that sometimes too. I don’t want to die but I get thoughts of it.

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 44w ago

I think this in a loop all the time but usually in response to my rocd and shame becoming intense

Username: Mister1979Mister1979

Date posted: 44w ago

I think I had these intrusive thoughts regularly for about 30 years, starting when I was 12. It was occasional for most of that, but got worse when my marriage went south. There was probably about ten years when it was near daily. I was always fortunate, though, in that for the most part I seemed to understand they were intrusive even long before I knew what intrusive thoughts were. I got through it by treating them like they were completely separate from my mind. "Oh, you're still there? Shut up, will you?" " Oh yeah, that's a thing that happens." They still come, rarely, now, and now it's more like I bumped into an old acquaintance is rather not see. It's not you, I promise. But even if they never totally go away, they don't have to get to you; it just takes some work learning to ignore them

Username: LoriGarner12LoriGarner12

Date posted: 43w ago

hey, i'm really sorry you're going through this. it sounds incredibly tough, and i want you to know you're not alone in feeling this way. many of us here have faced similar struggles and it's okay to seek help. have you heard about "unstuck", an ai-powered therapy tool specifically for ocd (unstuckmyOCD.com)? it's been a game changer for me this past month and could offer you some support too. someone here recommended it to me, and i just wish i had known about it sooner. 🌟

Username: OCDisAwful1204

Date posted: 25w ago

Suicidal OCD

This theme just started for me literally yesterday. I had one thought while taking my Prozac “what if you just took this whole bottle” and now I’m absolutely spiraling. The thoughts feel SO FU**ING REAL!!! I’ve struggled with harm ocd before about loved ones but never about myself. Anybody else go through this? And the thoughts feel so real like I actually do want to and like I am okay with it but I know that I’m not and that id never actually do it. But my brain is trying to convince me that I will. Please tell me I’m not alone with this?!! I am seeing a therapist and do have med management, I’m currently starting over on Prozac because I stopped it when I started feeling better. Bad idea.. because now I’m back at square one. But does anybody else go through this? And because I’m not like full on panicking about the thoughts, that makes me feel even worse. I mean I am anxious about them and like obsessing over the thoughts and whatnot, but I’m not in a full fledge panic either. Idk… just wanna know if anybody else struggles with this too?

Username: Auburndude11

Date posted: 25w ago

HELP!! Suicide trigger warning

Hey guys, I recently was diagnosed with OCD and it started with health, then false memory/real event, the career doubt, and incest, and now the worst of them all pOCD. I have no will to live and want to die every waking minute. Pray to god every night that I have a stroke or something in my sleep because these thoughts are so gross but i can’t stop thinking about them, and it’s my mind convincing myself that like it when I know I don’t, it’s so hard and if I don’t figure this out i don’t know how much longer I will last

Username: ysabelleveloz1

Date posted: 25w ago

SUICIDAL OCD, EXISTENTIAL INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, DPDR

Hi everyone if you haven’t read my latest posting I’m ysabelle & I am 16 years old and this is my on going battle with OCD, depression, anxiety and DPDR. To start off if you want to hear my story of how I first got it I have another post up! I wanted to ask if anyone has every experienced existential intrusive thoughts but has suicidal OCD too. I’ve been trying to find some type of comfort because the first theme I had with intrusive thoughts were suicidal/ harm. I’ve learned how to deal with them where they don’t bother me like they used to, long story short I was having existential intrusive thoughts without knowing it. I thought I was developing dementia because I would stare at my mom and an intrusive thought popped up into my head “ what if you don’t know her “ she was my comfort until that day. I was terrified thinking I didn’t know her or recognize her like I used to. Well I wanted to ask if anyone has dealt with suicidal OCD but existential thoughts like “what’s the point of living if we die anyways?” & how did you cope? I was overthinking because I was trying to figure out if I was suicidal because I would get these thoughts and it made me feel uncomfortable and just more defeated and depressed. I now know it’s the existential intrusive thoughts so I do feel a little better. I was thinking these thoughts were coming from me because of my depression but I’m trying everyday !🫶🏻☀️

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