I was feeling suicidal the other day because I was feeling doubtful about myself and other people. That was scary. I was actually thinking about dying even though death or ending things are scary to me
Hello, is there something I can help you with? What doubts are you having? What OCD thoughts are you struggling with? I'm glad you didn't harm yourself I promise things will get better it just takes some work and time. The more I resist compulsions and accept uncertainty the easier it is for me to ignore my thoughts. The thoughts still some but they are quiet and there isn't anxiety attached to them. There is a YouTube channel called OCD and Anxiety that has helped me and I'm working with a therapist to do ERP. If you haven't yet please talk to a therapist so you can start your road to recovery.
This has happened to me. Listen to “ power in the name of Jesus by Tasha cobbs” over and over again
There's people here who want to care for you.
@Someone99 Hey, is there a way we could message or email? I want to talk to you when my ocd freaks out
@Ishil Absolutely. Do you currently use any apps? I'll reply with my info to keep yours private 🙂
@Someone99 Yes
@Someone99 Which app should I use?
@Ishil I currently have telegram
@Ishil I'm @Mavh99 on telegram. See if that works, if not we'll try another one. 🙂
@Someone99 Okay thanks :)
If you’re suicidal please get help immediately. Here’s some resources: (800) 784-2433; (800) 273-8255
Really bad theme right now is death, I keep thinking about how one day or at any moment my heart will stop my brain will stop & my memories & everything I know will all fade away. It is giving me so much anxiety I’m only 18, but I realize it all happens to us it is bound, we are born to die. I know it’s a silly thing to be scared because it’s not helping the quality of my life worrying about it and even when I do die, I won’t care , if you don’t have a working brain then how can you care 🤷♀️. It is tainting my everyday life currently & honestly making me terribly depressed & it is giving me derealization & making me feel nihilistic, I’ll remind myself it’s okay but then with my ocd i don’t stop thinking and thinking about it and it’s seriously so hard to stay present in the moment because this thought just feels like I can’t scrub it away it’s miserable I struggle with religion, but I do pray to anything that’s out there possibly listening, because it is comforting, it just feels like this whole experience Is pointless & I am afraid of the unknown and what is to possibly happen but I’m subjected to it anyways so why should it matter
I feel so freaking scared. I know I’ll have an intrusive thought/urge and whatever I know I’m going to fight off another compulsion until I eventually give in bc I’m still so new to this. I am petrified and I feel like I cannot for the life of me relax. I’m sleep deprived, in a terrible place hormonally, withdrawing from meds, and being treated like a burden by people around me. I literally feel like I can’t do this. I keep thinking about those posts where people talk about the hypothetical scenarios where you learn your death date. I feel like if someone told me I’d die soon, I would cry of relief. I would never hurt myself but boy do I not want to experience this anymore.
Intrusive thoughts are unwanted and cause stress which mine do but also when I’m mad I get this rage feeling and say I wanna stab someone like that feels like a. Want not intrusive why am I saying “ I wanna “ :(
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