Racing thoughts and can’t sleep.

@Someone99 Yes definitely. A combination of religious ocd and my marriage. I feel I’m not in love with my wife. And I’m struggling with addiction to try to stop the thoughts

@Ninarose143 Yeah, I share in the religious OCD and ruminating. Sorry it's been so long since I replied. Are you still awake?

It would be nice to be able to message here, I believe we can only reply to posts like this. We all need each other. 🙂

@Someone99 Absolutely! I added you as a friend

@Ninarose143 Added back. 🙂 I use telegram and GroupMe, if you'd like to chat there?

@Ninarose143 Im married to and having a hell of a time because of OCD.

@Someone99 It’s awful! I’m so depressed and anxious

@Ninarose143 Yeah, I get it. It's difficult to sift through all the thoughts, the doubts, the questions, ruminating, etc ... But it's possible. ERP therapy has helped me a lot. Can you get in therapy?

@Someone99 Yes. I am in therapy and have an appointment on the 11th. I was in an ERP group but left for an outpatient addiction program but looking to get back in

@Ninarose143 Good to hear you're looking to get the help you need. It takes courage to admit we need help, especially with mental health. That's where I was 5 months ago. I would be awake most the night ruminating, planning bad things, etc. So glad I made the step to get help. My wife doesn't understand, she tries to, to her credit, but she doesn't. It's been tough.

@Someone99 Thank you! I’m happy you got the help too. I’m in the same boat, it’s really hard on my wife too. She is kind of over it

@Ninarose143 I'd like to encourage you along your journey. We all need encouragers in our lives. :-)

@Someone99 I totally agree and appreciate you so much!

@Ninarose143 I was just diagnosed OCD in June. I noticed I was angry that my wife didn't understand. I actually got annoyed when she would ask me "how's your OCD today?" Like it sounded scarcastic or something. Then I realized she can't understand as much as she tries because she doesn't experience it herself. Maybe it's that way with your wife as well? I had to extend her grace that way and allow her to not get it. :-)

@Someone99 Thank you for sharing. Yes that’s totally possible and I know she tries really hard she used to read books on ocd and stuff but now it’s just really bad and I don’t think she realized how bad it really was

@Ninarose143 Yes, very similar here. That does show how much she cares and loves you. It's horrible what this OCD can do to people and relationships. How long have you and her been married? I And the addiction adds to it for sure. I'm here to encourage you, it'll be a difficult hill to climb, you're not alone. Is it ok if I pray for you?

@Someone99 We’ve been together for 8 years and married for 5. Yes! Absolutely pray for me. I would love that! Thank you!

@Ninarose143 Absolutely! Thank you too! And if she has any questions, like any of the why questions about OCD, I'd help in any way that way too. :-)

@Someone99 You’re literally amazing! Thank you so much!

@Ninarose143 You're welcome, it's my pleasure, really. I believe we are most blessed when we help others through our struggles.

@Someone99 I totally agree!

@Ninarose143 Please keep in touch. You're in my heart and prayers.

@Ninarose143 My name is Mike, btw. I am older than most here, We have 2 sons in their 20's, so it's like I care for you and others who are hurting here as if you're my kids. 🫣

@Someone99 As you are in mine 💜

@Someone99 That’s very sweet! I appreciate that. I unfortunately never had a dad. I did have an amazing grandfather!

@Ninarose143 Can I adopt you? 🫣 Lol. I always wanted a daughter. My wife had an emergency hysterectomy shortly after our second son was born. Was your mom a single mom? That's awesome that your grandfather was in your life like that.

@Someone99 I would love if you adopted me!! My mom was and still is an addict and lived my my grandparents till I was 5. Got pregnant with my awesome little sister but happened to be with a very abusive bad man. My biological dad was murdered and was a drug addict too. But my grandparents were wonderful! But I lost them last year 😭

@Ninarose143 It was supposed to say my mom got pregnant with my little sister when I was five not me lol

@Ninarose143 *hugs*🫂 That's awesome how your grandparents were there for you!!! So sad for your losses. Just know that you can overcome addiction. You're not your past, your parents past, or any of that. Today is a new day.

@Ninarose143 I would like very much to be here for you along your journey. You're in my heart. Can we write through email or another way?

@Someone99 You are so amazing! I thank you so much you brighten up my day all the time and I thank you from the bottom of my heart

@Ninarose143 You're welcome. 🙂

@Ninarose143 Still wanting to adopt you! 🫣 Lol. Just thinking of you today, hope you're doing ok.

@Someone99 Thank you so much! I needed that. Today is my birthday!

@Ninarose143 Happy birthday!!! 🎁🎈 Omg, I'm so glad I messaged you and found this out!!! 😊 May I ask your age?

@Someone99 Yes, 38!

@Ninarose143 You're just a baby! Lol. How have you been?

@Someone99 Aww thank you I feel old lol. I’m really anxious. I went and detoxed off alcohol and start a program on the 27th but leaving this evening to go to Florida to visit my wife’s family. My ocd is soooooooooooo bad

@NotSoNewb82 Yea, I actually just got out of an outpatient program and I had 8 years and relapsed. I need to go back

@Ninarose143 You can do this.

@NotSoNewb82 Thank you 💜