A lot of uncertainty..

Hey yall. I’m feeling heavy today. My heart really hurts. I’ve relied on my family for support but I’m realizing their support costs me my peace and sanity and self respect. So I’m going no contact right now, and it’s pretty lonely. I feel sad about it, and also OCD is making me second guess it. Like “they’re not really that bad” and “are you sure you want to do this??” And “what if they turn on you and lash out in anger at your boundaries” or “what if they just simply forget you…” It’s hard. Any advice or kind words of support would really be helpful right now 🫶🏾 wishing yall the best, and happy OCD Awareness Month Side note: my family isn’t even really supportive. They say mean hurtful things and dismiss my feelings. And if they feel I’ve “overshared” they just shut me out or avoid me. Honestly, I don’t even know why I try to rely on them when they’re barely there for me anyway…

wizzles

Date posted: 2d

It is ok to take the time and space you need to find some peace of mind and learn what you need to feel stronger and healthier. I have had a long history of trying to "fix" certain dynamics in our family (which brought a lot of ruminating along with this😏). came to realise that the

wizzles

Date posted: 2d

most important part was getting some help in finding what I could do every day (lots of learning here through therapy and learning how to calm down my nervous system through practice...which you can learn through NOCD, CBT, meditation, and even getting a little creative with how to find the things that you enjoy doing again)....this is a bit of a journey, but it is so worth exploring...And when you stary to feel better, along the way, you will be stronger and can figure things out along the way. It is a process, but every step is worth exploring!💓

designer_girl✨

Date posted: 2d

Thank you so much :) I really needed to hear this!!! I do need time and space for sure and to focus on myself instead of fixing them

wizzles

Date posted: 2d

Keep going

designer_girl✨

Date posted: 2d

@wizzles Thank you :) I will

Anonymous

Date posted: 2d

I'm sorry you're going through this! I've felt similarly before, and I know it's difficult. :( It's valid to feel sad about it! I feel lonely a lot, and I know it's such a difficult feeling to go through. And I understand your fear when you brought up about what if they would forget -- being forgotten about is something that really worries me. If it helps, I'm here if you'd like someone to talk to :)

designer_girl✨

Date posted: 2d

@Anonymous Thank you so much!!! I’m aso really sorry you’ve gone through this same thing :( it’s very painful and lonely thing to feel. I’d love to talk :) the hardest part is on my side I feel so bad not talking to them! Even though they’re really mean to me. But I assume for their side they make it seem like not talking to me is meh whatever (like they can live without me). It’s the worst part

Anonymous

Date posted: Yesterday

@designer_girl✨ I'm really sorry you're feeling that way... I understand, it's honestly difficult for me to go without talking with people in general. And worrying that they might act like they don't mind not talking is a really difficult way to feel. (I personally feel like people feel that way about me, but maybe more in the way that they just don't remember to interact with me much.) Again, I'm sorry you're feeling that way! I hear you, and I can see how this would be a really hard part of it!

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