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a couple hours ago, my mum was drinking juice from a glass cup and a small piece of it broke of mid drinking and got stuck in her tongue and she pulled it out but she was bleeding a lot and then i went with her to our local pharmacy in which they told us that it will heal and to just use some numbing medication that they recommended for us (i told her not to take it immediately just incase it stung or caused a bigger issue), the bleeding has consistently stopped and started since then and we got in touch with our doctor who told us to go the a&e but my mum hates going there because of the waiting time so she then called 111 who told her that they'll call back in the next six hours (it's been around two hours since), i've been constantly googling her symptoms and everything says she needs to go to a&e but she says she feels better and that it isn't serious but i think over researching has made me on edge and earlier i was feeling so sickly anxious and i did not know what to do and the pharmacy guy from earlier didn't help ease my anxiety as much as my friend's sister did who is also a pharmacist but maybe that's because i know her and have familial trust ??? (if that's the word) but i'm really worried because the internet and 111 operator were talking about seizures and now im worried she'll have one and nobody will catch it because we'll all be sleeping and i'm not sure that i'll even be able to sleep tonight. also my room has never been so messy at least not in awhile as i have nothing to do but i will get to it either tomorrow or wednesday !! i just really need some anxiety relief because it feels like my brain is working overtime and i hate it so much.

AGAPE LOVE

Date posted: Yesterday

Oh my. I’m so sorry to hear about your mother and that you’re going through all that. Try to remember that Google always gives you the worst case scenario just in case. I’ve even noticed when I’ve googled things. Sometimes it seems to answer things in a way that it thinks I want them. Only God everything. Personally for me, I try to pray and trust God that everything’s gonna be alright. But I also tried to remind myself that you can only encourage her and tell her what you think will be best, but in the end, she makes her own decisions because she is a different person than you and you’re not responsible for her choices. I’m curious to know what has happened with this case, so if you can, perhaps you can repost about it. I will be praying for you and your mom. I also pray that you slept well regardless and found a level of peace just to walk through it. Give yourself a pat on the back for being a kind, compassionate, and loving daughter. I will be praying for you and your mom.

kikixo

Date posted: 22h

thank you so much !! my sleep was actually better than i thought, i was worried that she could have a seizure in her sleep (because of the information that google was giving me) or she could start bleeding or other scenarios, so every now and then i'd listen out to see if i could hear any discomfort or anything but she slept through and the 111 operator called back at 3-4am to tell her to go into a&e which made me feel a lot more relieved, i did think of the fact that maybe google was over exaggerating but i was too scared to take the risk that it wasn't, however !! this morning at 9:40 we went to a&e and we were there until 12:40 which wasn't as bad, they had an initial check in and then sent us to the emergency x-ray room and then back to the main waiting room with 30 minutes to 2 hours of waiting in each area but they cleared her and said there was nothing too concerning which is great and thank you so much for keeping us in your prayers, it truly means a lot, i thank god that it was nothing serious and she was just told to eat soft foods :) thank you so much, hope you're healthy and well !! <3

AGAPE LOVE

Date posted: 20h

@kikixo Awe! I am so very happy to hear that! Praise be to God! He loves you and your mama so much! We people with OCD need to remember that our thoughts can hinder us by putting fear in us. It’s good to have a sounding board or somebody to bounce things off of. So I’m glad I could be here to help. I go through similar scenarios every now and then, and sometimes I drive my daughter nuts by trying to bounce stuff off of her and I need to just sometimes figure things out myself or lean on other people as well. If you get a chance, look up Mark DeJesus on YouTube. He speaks into a lot of OCD stuff and he is sooooo helpful! He speaks about relationship OCD, religious OCD, etc. etc. Whatever flavor of OCD anybody could possibly have, he will talk them through it and teaches people how to have a good relationship with themselves and with God, especially if they struggle from religious OCD like I have in the past. I hope you find him helpful. Thanks to God I am healthy and well, still battling things but I’m getting through it like everybody else who finds it in themselves to work on it. I’m so grateful! 🥰🥰🥰

kikixo

Date posted: 5h

@AGAPE LOVE - bless you !! ever since i've downloaded nocd, it has definitely made me feel a lot better about myself and my struggles and i feel less alone knowing i'm not actually going crazy and thank you for the recommendation, i will search him up !! i wish you all the best of luck in the future and hope you have an amazing day !! :)

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