Loneliness and OCD

Haiii guys! I’m baaackkk!!! Good afternoon, I wish ya’ll the best weekend! *hugs* 🤗 *mwah, mwah, mwah* I’ve tried posting about loneliness here before, but unfortunately some of my previous posts were (I think) removed because I mentioned some heavier topics. (about sh) even though I put trigger warning. It shows that I have 6 posts (including this one) While I actually have 9. I completely understand that there are community guidelines around that, so I wanted to try reaching out again in a way that focuses specifically on loneliness and friendship. ❤️ Lately I’ve been feeling really lonely outside of school. I do have a few classmates like 3 I talk to during the school day, and I’m genuinely grateful for them, but once I leave school, it feels like I’m alone again. We don’t talk outside school unless its about homework or projects. I think what I’m missing most is having people I can genuinely call friends. People I can talk to regularly, share little things with, laugh with, or simply know are there. I don’t necessarily need a huge friend group. Even one or two genuine friendships would mean a lot to me. OCD can already make everyday life feel exhausting, and I think the loneliness sometimes makes everything feel heavier and worsen the symptoms. At the same time, I know I’m still trying. I’m going to school, talking to people, participating in class, and slowly trying to become more comfortable around others. I’m hoping that as the school year continues, I’ll have more opportunities to connect with people naturally. I do in fact talk to random people at school and compliment them but we don’t actually became friends, like I talk to them once and never again. If anyone else has dealt with feeling lonely even when they technically have people around them, I’d really love to hear how you handled it. What helped you make genuine friendships or feel less alone? I need suggestions and recommendations. I unfortunately not allowed to have social media especially with my cyberphobia and Surveillance OCD type. But If y’all can recommend me some apps that are not as popular or well known but are safe socials, let me know! I wish I could make friends in there my age because this is the right community for me where I actually belong and that I can relate and every-time I read y’all stories it makes me feel less alone. My HelpLine suggested me to find OCD communities because it will help with my loneliness and she was right. I’m not looking for reassurance about OCD or anything like that. I mostly just wanted a place to say, “Hey, I’m here, I’m trying, and I wish I had more people in my life.” ❤️ I also got into an argument with someone recently and it also affected me a lot, i got harassed, bullied, sweared, made fun of for this exact reason but I don’t think this is the right place to post. If you guys want story time I will share in the replies Anyways this is all for now, If I need to add more I will add in the replies or make another post. Baiii guysss!!! Have a great weekend! 🤗