Anyone who's neurodivergent/ofc with OCD help !

I felt confident in the morning, did my homework from 4-6 AM/attempted to study for my math test for 30 minutes- and next thing you know 1st block of math and by the end of the test I was the only one left to finish it and the only one who turned it in with 4 questions missing, didn't even finish the quiz. I feel so stupid. :^( It's like my mind went blank and I had 1000 thoughts spinning around all at once. I'm so forgetful with information + procrastination and overall anxiety just gets to me. I suspect I have some sort of ADHD or some sort. (but of course I'm not diagnosed & don't have too much knowledge with my symptoms and whats what for that, so it's not a definite answer.) And with OCD, now I'm horrified I'm going to get into massive trouble and I'm preparing myself for more lectures from parents or whatevers coming. I don't know whats wrong with me. T^T And I've ALWAYS been this way so it's not like a burnout moment, despite feeling that way currently. When I turned in my quiz I said "I couldn't finish it all but I did the most I could" with my usual voice pitch going 3x higher and the teacher at that class said he'd talk to my math teacher about it and I went "😁... (nods and walk away)" I've been having nightmares of me going on my knees crying and begging for forgiveness to my teachers and everyone which sounds SO dumb I know I giggle each time I wake up but I'm still really scared. 😵 Anyone who's neurodivergent and goes to school/has had experiences from school. How has it been for you or how was it for when it came to assignments/procrastination? And if you have any advice please do let me know !!

Kai on the Wall

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

Hi, I'm getting tested for autism and ADHD next week! (I actually already have an ADHD diagnosis, but I don't trust the methodology of how I was diagnosed...) I'm in college, but maybe some of this will still be relevant. Procrastination has been one of my biggest issues throughout my life and has substantially affected my academic performance (my grades have been fine on average, but the lows are... rather low). At my worst, I've found that the only thing that makes me actually do things is 1) being explicitly told to do them, and 2) having someone with me as I do them -- someone who is gentle but firm and who I know will actually care if the work doesn't get finished. Basically, creating an environment where the short-term costs of procrastination (e.g., feeling like someone other than yourself will judge you) is higher than the short-term relief it brings you can do wonders. Deadlines approaching used to motivate me, but they stopped working back in high school. Accommodations can also be very helpful, so if it's possible to get diagnosed so you can get accommodations, I would highly recommend that! I can barely finish tests even with extra time and sometimes don't, but things would be substantially worse if I didn't have any accommodations (which I got very, very late into college and regret not pursuing earlier).

VVbee

Date posted: Yesterday

That's interesting, for me getting told to do a task does the exact opposite for me- that's when OCD gets sort of in between and after being told I feel like I "betrayed" the person and they think I'm lazy and such. It completely de-motivates me. 🥹 What works sometimes for me is that sometimes I wake up 2 hours before the assignment(s) are due and the adrenaline sort of makes me start rushing and gets thing done- but since I've been so burnt out recently it just doesn't work anymore. The accommodations tip is a really good reminder tho! I agree with that, I hope that I can SOMEHOW get diagnosed with my main stuff and possibly either ADHD or Autism and what not before college comes in 2 years. : ) The diagnoses part is the most difficult stage at the moment since I have to deal with hinting/convincing old-schooled parents that somethings up with me and then having to go through the process at the doctors and what not and yadda yadda but after that I hope it becomes more easy. Thanks so much for the response. 🙇‍♀️

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