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hi, it's been 2 months since I used this app but i wanted to come back just to vent a little. i started having intrusive thoughts back in october 2024 and it still persists today. i felt really bad and was in a horrible cycle of having intrusive thoughts all the time, dealing with false attraction, and spend hours analyzing my feelings. Nowadays, i don't have that same feeling anymore, it took about 2 months to get rid of that cycle a little. nowadays, when i have intrusive thoughts, unwanted bodily reactions or even false attraction, i just ignore them, i have no desire to care about it anymore. Seriously, i really can't care anymore. some days i feel great and other days i feel a little down again, but it's not the same as before. i uninstalled the app so iwwouldn't have to look for reassurance and i managed to get rid of it :) i haven't gotten rid of everything yet, but i can say that starting to not care whether such attraction is real or not, intrusive thoughts and such helps a lot. (im using a translator so i apologize if there are some mistakes)

lissamls

Date posted: 3d

a tip: if you use reddit or nocd a lot to try to calm your anxiety, I recommend you stop. by the way, try to distract yourself more, i tried to distract myself by playing, at first it was difficult because i was still infested with intrusive thoughts and feelings and I couldn't distract myself completely, but as time went by i managed to distract myself :) Before, I would spend the whole day feeling afraid and anxious, I would wake up with intrusive thoughts and go to bed with them. but nowadays that has changed, i hope one day to come back here and say that this whole nightmare has completely disappeared, i wish good luck to everyone who suffers from the same problem 💗

Misstama65

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 3d

Thanks. I was wondering about using this app for reassurance. I look up if others have the same fears a lot

lissamls

Date posted: 3d

@Misstama65 heyy, i used to do the same thing in the past, then i realized that it wouldn't help and that later i might get anxious again anyway, so i stopped

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 3d

thanks for this, what helped you the most?

lissamls

Date posted: 3d

what helped me most was starting to observe what was holding me back in this cycle, i also tried to change my routine and i forced myself as much as possible to ignore the unwanted feelings, it's very difficult to ignore them at first because you feel helpless and it seems like you won't be able to do it, but with time you can overcome it! i also started telling myself that life is too long for me to waste it trying to resolve something that was not on my control. i hope we all get over this one day, it hurts so much to have to deal with this but it won't last forever💗

Anonimus ME 🦋

Date posted: 2d

@lissamls thank you! The most difficult thing for me is the urge to analyze feelings, especially with imagination! I try not to do that, but it is difficult, especially since it seems realistic! Thank you once again, working on yourself always pays off.. it's important to fight.. I wish you a lot of strength and success🫂

Anonymous

Date posted: 3d

That’s honestly really great to hear. We have the capacity to choose :) I’m just starting so I don’t know much, but thanks for sharing.

dee012

Date posted: 17w

back on this app! any advice?

(Long read) hello everyone. i was out of the country for about 3-4 months and traveling. my ocd was not that bad at all and I was able to handle it even if it came up. on my way back home, it immediately started. i have learned how to handle it better, but i am more sad and just “awaiting” for something bad to happen. for example, i have sexual themed ocd. pocd and family related stuff, and also my ocd targeted my pets for about a year and it manifested into compulsions that disturbed me and made me not want to be around my cats. now that i am around my cats, i feel like “what if i harm them or do something bad?” or “what if you do those weird compulsions that happened before?” , when i look back on the compulsions that happened, it doesn’t feel like me and it was clearly driven by ocd, but it makes me worry i am just a sick person. i know myself and i know im not, but i had such a weird childhood and then ocd from 15 years old and up. so when these weird compulsions had happened , whether it was for the pet ocd theme or pocd or the family ocd, it feels like some sort of proof. anyways, i feel a bit for content with myself but i know how real ocd can feel and i just remember feeling so hopeless and suici da l, i just don’t want to go through that again. i take a more spiritual route of life and healing, and i wonder if anyone has some deep spiritual warmups or practices i could do to maybe open up my mind more? maybe to realize this is all in the mind? but also to not fight it… Not fight it meaning not let it take over my life. i racked up so much debt in therapy and i truly think i can get through this alone i just need a bit of help. but i dunno. any advice would help! thanks everyone ☀️

youllwintheb...

Date posted: 13w

Hocd (recovery or ocd in controll?)

I haven't had anxiety for 1 week, I haven't had so many thoughts, but when it comes to sexuality I feel discomfort and I feel like something is pressing on my chest, it's very disturbing, and I still have attraction (false I hope), I wasn't diagnosed with hocd but I had all the symptoms, (now I don't have anxiety anymore, except when a feeling that I'm gay appears), I no longer felt that strong need to watch videos on yt or look for things that would make me feel comfortable, so somehow I managed to keep this under control, but I don't know if it's recovery or if I'm just lying to myself that I'm not gay. If anyone has any ideas, I hope they write something here

melly07

Date posted: 11w

rOCD

I wanted to talk about my experiences with rOCD since I currently do still suffer from it but I know if I talked about them. My thoughts are just gonna get stronger, but I’ll do it for the sake of talking about my experiences to others who feel like they’re alone. I have a very loving relationship actually my first healthy relationship we are currently still dating one year and six months. I would say these intrusive thoughts started to happen once I hit the one year mark with him. Nothing in the relationship has made me think these thoughts, but it just came. Like when my mind tried to make me think I liked another guy other than my boyfriend and that I was losing feelings for him. I started to panic because I knew that my heart belonged to my boyfriend and having thoughts that were against that belief it made me really anxious cause I never had those thoughts before. I was in and out of the care center at my school constantly having anxiety attacks, and it was affecting me day by day. I talk to my boyfriend about it because my mind can never keep secrets from him because then I would feel like that I’m lying to him… my mind just kinda works that way and I believe it’s due to the situation I have with rOCD. Luckily, he was really supportive.. in thoughts I’ve had was what if I don’t like him anymore or if he doesn’t do this does that mean he likes me or if he’s even the one just a lot of doubts about me and him in the relationship. And for anyone who’s experiencing stuff familiar to this you are not alone invalid only what you believe is what is true. And I know it’s gonna be hard to know what’s true or not because these thoughts that you have versus what’s in your heart you get confused but if you know that you love that person then that’s what true. Also, the only reason why it affected me a lot was because I kept trying to solve it and the only solution is to let those thoughts in and accept that you have those thoughts. I don’t mean as an accept that these thoughts are true, but accepts that those are the thoughts that you’re thinking because if you keep on trying to find a solution to remove them, it only just get worse.

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