Is this Pocd? 18+++

@Yourfavocdgal You’re 18+?

@Idontknow I’m 21

@Yourfavocdgal I just feel like a p for that I’m not sure if it’s a trigger

@Love1another<3 I’m worried because I tell myself they’re just thoughts but that was odd

@Idontknow Totally understandable! I get why it can feel scary, for sure. Are you somehow able to work on doing self-ERP? That will dramatically reduce these symptoms 👍

@Love1another<3 Yes can you please give me some coping mechanisms

@Idontknow Sure thing! :) What part of the ERP process are you struggling with the most right now?

@Love1another<3 The uncertainty, it’s like what if that actually happened and I’m just upset about it the whole day even though I ask for reassurance I don’t believe it because what if they didn’t feel it or they don’t know

@Idontknow Oh okay thanks for explaining! In times like these I try to remind myself, first that I have OCD. These are symptoms of the disorder, no matter how taboo it feels. Second, I try to encourage myself not to give into compulsions. I think to myself: I’ve asked my family members and Reddit for reassurance a million times over the course of years. Has that made my OCD better? Has that gotten me recovered? Or has that gotten me deeper into my OCD wondering about a million new questions? “Choose your hard” is a common saying in ERP therapy. Life doing compulsions is already hard. So is doing ERP. Yes ERP really sucks at first and it’s painful. But at least ERP gives us a way out of this misery. It gives us a new life of peace. Third, in the meantime while I’m resisting compulsions, I try to do values-based activities that require a lot of focus. It’s hard to ruminate at the same time that you’re solving a math problem, singing a song, or playing a fast-paced game. So I try to do activities at home like that so I space out less. Spacing out gives you an opportunity to ruminate. The key out of the OCD cycle is to stop compulsing. It’s simple but incrediblyyy difficult to actually do 😅

@Love1another<3 Omg, you speak like my therapist wow you need to become a therapist or psychologist please

@Love1another<3 Thank you!!! Last night I was getting uncomfortable urges omg I felt like screaming

@Love1another<3 I’m going to an iop hopefully soon because most people who does ERP don’t take my insurance

@Idontknow I’m so very glad I could help you and thank you for the great compliment! 😄❤️ I’m sorry to hear about your intrusive urges. They always pass with time and they pass faster the less you compulse about them. That’s amazing that you can go to an IOP! I think it’ll really help you :) Give it your best shot! Make it worth it 🙏 Fight through the painful discomfort of OCD and take your life back

@Love1another<3 I don’t know I feel like a p i wake up and I feel like I did something bad

@Idontknow I wake up with a bad feeling too! It’s common with Ocd. It’s morning anxiety because our cortisol levels are higher. You’re attaching your own meaning to it- that morning anxiety means you’re a p. Try not to attach meaning and you’ll be less anxious 🫶

@Love1another<3 You think nothing happened? You don’t think my brother is being inappropriate with me or I am?

@Idontknow Hmm sounds like a reassurance question! 😄 I want you to start feeling better and get on the road to recovery. So I want you to consider if asking for reassurance is gonna give you long term relief or just short term

@Love1another<3 Short term because I still won’t believe it :(

@Idontknow That’s great that you have that awareness! That’s awesome progress so I’m proud of you for recognizing that :) Having an awareness of what Ocd wants us to do- helps us to know to do the opposite

@Love1another<3 I’m sorry I don’t want to bother you but I think about my brother and sometimes I like to look at his face and I feel fixated on his face and it’s like I feel like I’m in love with him I love my brother but not like that this is really making me feel like a P

@Love1another<3 I think it’ll take a lot for me to heal

@Idontknow No worries at all :) I’ve had similar problems as you. Also, never forget that you have POCD. It’s a symptom of the disorder to have obsessive fixations and false feelings about children/family members. OCD goes after what you care about. It’s okay if you take a while to heal! Just so you know, ERP can be really effective in a few weeks or a few months- it all depends on how consistent you are and how much work you put in. Some themes feels stickier than others but they are treated the exact same way- with ERP :)

@Love1another<3 And again with the attention seeking thing in Roblox this is what ps do because I literally went to change my avatar to put her in a dress to see how pretty she looked and to get attention but I put the suit she had on but still I went to do that I know it’s Roblox but the fact that I want to dress my avatar pretty for attention is p

@Love1another<3 I give up, it’s like I don’t even want help because I just feel like a p

@Idontknow I play Roblox too and I make my character dress cute :) I make my characters cute on every game I play. Games that kids happen to also play. Does that make me a p? If not, why does it make you a p and not me? Ocd likes to think our case is the special one

@Love1another<3 It’s like sometimes I feel like I want attention like I want avatars to get close or to tell me they like my character isn’t that intent? Like I want attention

@Idontknow I think it’s the rumination that’s causing you to spiral deeply on this. Tons of people want their character to look nice, including me :) There’s nothing more to it unless you listen to what Ocd is saying in your ear

@Love1another<3 I don’t think so because I am a attention seeker too I use to do that I use to dress my character nice to be cool and to get compliments

@Idontknow And that’s okay! :)

@Love1another<3 You think so?

@Love1another<3 Hi I really need help because I’m so upset right now

@Idontknow Hi :) what’s wrong?

@Love1another<3 Can you see the response I sent?

@Idontknow Noo it didn’t show up sadly :( I saw your new post tho- so does it have to do with the dream you had?

@Love1another<3 Yes

@Love1another<3 About my brother doing stuff to me and I got A

@Love1another<3 Literally woke up and was half asleep and my head was like I miss M and the image of man or my brother I lowered their head because of inappropriate reasons and I got ar###

@Idontknow - We get dreams about our Ocd related content because we think about those topics during the day. Our brains are still active while we are sleeping so we still have those thoughts in our heads. They are referred to as "intrusive dreams." You got a groinal response because sexual thoughts give sexual feelings. And I don't know what time it is for you but it's nighttime for me. So if it's also nighttime for you, then you had the dream many hours ago. What helps this is that when you don't compulse about your dream, those anxious thoughts and feelings can pass in like 20 minutes or less after you wake up and you'll even forget about the dream hours later. If you compulse, those anxious feelings can last for days. So if you don't ruminate, confess, seek reassurance, etc. then those anxious feelings will go away pretty soon :) New intrusive thoughts and feelings will come in of course but Ocd content doesn't matter and they're all handled the same.

@Love1another<3 Thank you for replying, I’m very upset I couldn’t stop thinking about it and if I either was h or I h him it’s like what is the truth? It’s like I can’t even be in peace in my sleep Like it actually felt like I was enjoying it and had the response that’s what bothers me the most and I keep checking to see if I get a