Ocd flare up

I'm going through an ocd flare up. I'm in a pretty bad depressive episode and just got triggered so it's harder for me to cope. Can't really get out of bed so can't take my mind off it. It feels so real this time. But of course I'm not confessing and this has happened many times before so I'm choosing to stay uncertain and live with it. Just wanted to share with anyone because it all feels really heavy and my close ones already seem so fed up with me hahs. If anybody is going through the same thing just remember that you're not alone!

slippery_salad

Date posted: 18d

Sudoku helped me. With this theme, ruminating is a common compulsion. So anything you can do to stifle the compulsion (ruminating, seeking reassurance, etc.) helps tremendously… even if its just for a second… even if you focus your attention to something else for just a split second… this gives your brain even a second just to breath. Which can change a lot. Sudoku, going on walks, naps, etc. I think these are called, healthy distractions. They help alleviate the anxiety heavily

smarji24

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 18d

Sudoku helped me too. I’m also in a flare up after being good for about 7-8 months and now I’m thinking I’m reliving last year because of PTSD and it’s making me cringe so I’m in the height of my anxiety and rumination/OCD. I’m also on meds (Zoloft) and I’ll be increasing it so I can regain my control. I have my tools, I have 2 therapists, and I’ve got my support system. We can ride the wave and come out of the dirt once again. We can do this.

smarji24

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 18d

@smarji24 I also feel like my support system is tired of me but I’m still reaching out lol

Turtle

Date posted: 18d

Thank you! I relate 100%. I’m getting used to my meds so feeeling increased anxiety/ocd. We got this! Just ride the wave. You won’t feel like this forever.

KAW1007

Date posted: 18d

I relate to you a lot. How long does it usually take you to live with the uncertainty even if you’ve already asked one time and then your brain is like what if again? Or doesn’t take the reassurance they give you? It takes me ages for thoughts to float about because of rumination.

🖤BrokenChaos🖤

Date posted: 24w

Flare Up ~ Vent

TW My brother came home 4 days ago (I think) from a hospital stay of just over 3 months. In the hospital, he attacked one of the staff and almost k*lled her, in his dysphoric mania. Now he's out of mania, but I'm scared that he'll harm or try to k*ll our pets and/or my mom and dad. Since he's been home, my OCD has flared up badly, and I've started to have panic attacks (leading to seizures and fainting), destroying my lips, and having overstimulation over every little physical sensation. My joint pain is becoming unbearable and the medications aren't working, I may have an autoimmune disorder that could destroy my organs (Lupus), I'm frustrated because walking feels like hell, I keep falling, I keep getting dizzy and seeing stars and I'm just so tired. I can't sleep since my brother came home. Yes, I close my door at night, but I'm still terrified that he will hurt my cat. I've started to hate anything that I've touched with my hands cuz I don't wanna get stuff on my face and I hate the feeling. Yesterday I kept obsessing over whether or not I was cheating, if any of my memories are real, obsessing over if everything is perfect or perfectly in place, and over everything my brother does. I've become paranoid over everything and I'm so tired. Thank you for listening.

yaya_zz

Date posted: 22w

OCD flaring up

My ocd has been flaring up lately I’ve noticed some things that I don’t know if it’s ocd or something else whenever I seen someone like drugged or sick or just not “normal” I feel like or get scared that’s gonna end up being me? Does that make sense or then after a few minutes I feel like I’m them I don’t know exactly how to explain it I feel like I’m gonna start acting crazy or like I act weird or like them ? Idk exactly how to explain it and I have such a drop in my stomach thinking of it because it makes me feel insane, I haven’t had such an ocd episode so it’s getting hard again and making me feel insane specially because I don’t know how to explain this that I feel, I feel so scared rn can someone please comment on this?

wafflemonster

Date posted: 10w

Worst flare up

I got TMS almost a year ago and it helped so much. Now I am having one of the worst flare ups I have had in over a year. My themes keep changing, I am so exhausted. Its affecting my relationship because I am constantly on edge and my boyfriend is struggling to manage the whip lash. He thinks its his fault. I feel like I cannot trust my own thoughts but they feel so real, I am so lost. Has anyone had their OCD score drop and then rapidly peak? No one understands my heightened anxiety, and I’m just so tired 😔

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